clark gable

I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
The script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it

And i want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?

- Clark Gable, The Postal Service

i love this song.

Let's sit on the grass and forget everything but us.

I don't think alarms are working well for me. I set three alarms from 9:30, 9:45 and 10am. I only woke up at 10 and somehow ignored the other two alarms even though my phone is under my pillow. (My phone is my alarm clock.)
Anyhow, I headed out to take photos this morning. Then, this lady came up to me and asked what I was doing on the grass field.
"I'm taking photos,"
"Everyday?"
"Uh, no,"
"Because I saw you yesterday,"
"Oh,"
"Where's your mum?"
"Working,"
"Oh,"
"...."
"Where you live?"
"(my block number here)"
"But it's so hot here,"
"Nah, it's okay,"
"Oh, I think your family got problem that's why you're here,"
"Uh.."

Well, I don't really mind her saying that. I mean, what would you think if you saw a girl sitting on the grass, posing some plastic doll and taking photos on a really hot day? Heh. :P
Anyway, here are some outtakes, I realised I'm terrible at self-portraiture.

Lost track.

Today started off with my dog jumping on me because she was shaken awake due to my vibrating phone alarm. Anyhow, I really started my morning with a nice shower and finding nothing to digest. I had an iced latte and took a bus to school to return my report book.
And I went off to the post office to collect my awaited package! :D

Though the wait was 30 minutes long, there was this old man who was in front of the lady in front of me and he couldn't collect his mail because he only recieved his notification today and the mail hasn't arrived yet. He waited for nothing. ):
Anyhow, my jaw dropped when I opened the package.

Literally. Well, can't blame me, it's my first mail item.
Sadly, the photos I took today were horrible. I'm going to take photos tomorrow morning.


If I can wake up.

hou ♥

My cousin is sweet. Somewhat selfish for a five-year-old but still, an awesome gamer.
I asked my mum why my cousin wouldn't let go of me and she told me, he was lonely. He's addicted to his Nintendo DS and I love Nintendo. I used to share a DS with my sister but during a terrible mishap, it died.
I can't wait to see him next week.

I spent the day with my cousin, aunt and uncle. And my mum and sister.
Yeah.

My cousin showed us how to kill a fly in the food court by merely just clapping your hands together, squashing the poor bug to death. I just killed one in my room by accident.
Using that same method.



(:

"If you don't believe the bible, God will damn you to hell,"
"I seriously don't believe that God goes around damning people to hell because he's too busy doing this!"
Giant arm gestures to beautiful mother nature.

- Bridge To Terabithia

It's a beautiful Sunday and I spent my morning in guitar class, returning to the bus interchange, taking a bus to central, buying brunch of my family and going back home. For the rest of the day, I went slack. I'm not going for a holiday during the two month break, my aunt cancelled the trip to Ipoh. I always thought Ipoh as a cold state but I forgot Malaysia doesn't experience four seasons anyway. Oh well, if you find my skeleton in my home that means I would have died of boredom. I guess I'm going to start writing again.

The depressing life of Tiffany James.

It's been eleven lessons already.

I almost posted a personal entry on my class blog. How stupid.

It is somewhat amazing how I always drag myself out of bed to go out with my family for breakfast, always the last one to be ready and always the one making a fuss. I did this previously and one of my contact lenses fell out. Another fell out today.
I don't know what we did that it lasted till six thirty.
Well, my dad had to withdraw money and we headed to Chinatown for breakfast. Then, we went to IMM, a shopping centre for a couple hours. During these hours, music were screaming into my ears and my parents redeemed themselves a free laptop.

The whole day was gone and when we reached home, we find a note from the post office where the delivery of my package failed. Oh well, I'll collect it on tuesday.


Now, I'll try to crawl into bed and not to worry that I can't practice anything on guitar because I'm a bad workman who blames her tools. -_-

WHERE IS MY MAIL.

; _ ;


Patience is a virtue. Not really my virtue, but yeah. :P

i loved today.

Today was awesome.
I watched High School Musical 3 with Hana and Mira, what am I suppose to say. It is still cheesy over the romance parts. Brandon, Ting and Bao Qiang were in the front row because the tickets were all taken up. Thing was, during the kissing scene, I started to giggle, okay, laugh and Hana started laughing and Mira joined in. Of course, somebody from the back started to shush us but after we stopped laughing, other people just started to laugh. It was somewhat, ridiculous.
Anyhow, we went to Pasir Ris Park and gosh.
Melissa is so cute!

Though I broke my curfew, I decided that changing my attitude was right. Which was, well, yeah. Anyway, here I am with a quiz I've taken with permission from Diana. (:


ARE YOU:
Perfect: In my own way, yes.
Tall: I'm not tall. At all.
In your pajamas: Yep. My blue shirt and orange shorts.
Left handed: Nope. Though I'll like to do more things with my left hand.
Last Friend you saw: Mira
Talked to on the phone: Mira
Person to text you: Mira

LOL

FAVORITE:
Number: 7, 3.
Color: Green, grey.
Food: Anything western.
Place: Somewhere with grass and good air. Like Pasir Ris Park.
QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
I got out of my room and said to my sister who was watching television,"I smell eggg," and she went,"I FORGOT ABOUT THE SOUP!"
Yeah, she forgot to turn off the fire.
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
The class BBQ and parental pressure.
Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
High School Musical 3.
Q: Where is the last place you went?
Pasir Ris Park.
Q. Do you smile a lot?
Guess so.
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
Usually. (:
Q: Are you a friendly person?
Yeah.
Q: Where did you sleep last night?
My bed.
Q: Why did you sleep there?
I can't sleep in my parents' room anymore and my sister hates sharing the room with me and the living room has no aircon.
Q: When was the last time you cried?
Nineteen days ago.
Q: What was your last thought before going to bed?
MOVIE!
Q: Rate life as of right now, onebeing bad, ten being great?
Seven..Eight..
Q: What do you hear right now?
Two Bodies One Heart - Noah and The Whale
Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
How I'm losing my best friend :l
Q: What's your favorite month?
January.

EMOTIONS:
Are you missing someone right now?
Yeah.
Are you single ?
Are you hitting on me?
Are you tired?
Yep.
Are your parents still married?
Yeah.

BASICS:
Real name?
Joelyn
Age?
Nineteen Thirteen
Eye color?
The darkest brown that ever existed.
Male or female?
Female.
Single?
Yep.
Crushing?
It happens to everyone.
Smart?
I'm so smart that I'm usually compared to my smarter friends.
Hair color?
Brown, black.
Sweats or Jeans?
Jeans.
Phone or Cam?
Phone.

and another one;
1. Do you want to grow old with someone or be single?
It's obvious, I rather grow old with someone.
2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Sleeping.
3. What were you doing in last 30 minutes?
I logged onto msn.
4. What was something that happened to you in 1988?
No ideas have yet to have appeared that before they even knew that their first child would come, a second one would be concieved six years after 1989.
5. When someone catches your eye, do you try to make an eye contact or avoid it?
Glancing works.
6. What color is your comb?
Blue.
7. What was the last thing you bought?
Ice cream.
8. How do you know when you're in love?
I guess it's the same as crushing. You get anxiety and paranoia attacks, that person would be glued to your brain and you start sounding weird and all you talk is that person! -_-
9. Have you been to China?
It was freezing cold.
10. Where do you keep your money?
A gold CKIN2U cardboard box.
11. Do you like peanut butter?
Yeah.
14. Dream country/state?
Japan, New York..
15. The thing you love about being single?
You can do whatever you want. No one can stop you except your parents.
17. What is your cellphone number?
My line got cut.
18. Do you wanna cut your hair?
Yeah.
19. Are you over the age of 25?
I already stated my age.
20. Do you talk a lot?
Yeah.
21. Best movie you've seen from the past 2 weeks?
HSM3.
22. Last thing you ate?
Rice.
23. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yeah, too much television works at that idea.
24. Favorite ice cream?
Chocolate or strawberry.
25. Could you date someone who has been only your friend for a long time?
That'll be weird. XD
26. Are you typically a jealous person?
LOL probably.

aaannnnddd another one; XD

IF YOUR EX SAID THIS TO YOU:

Hi how are ya?
Yeah?
2. Hey! You wanna go to the mall?!
What for?
3. I LOVE U..
Dude, you GOTTA get over it!
4. Do u want some cookies?
I'm not in the I-Want-A-Cookie mood now..
5.Can you help me take a picture?!?
Uh, ask her.
6.Help me in my homework!
Go and ask the teacher.
7. Here's my gift to you...
STOP IT LOL
8. Let's just be textmates
I already deleted your phone number.
9. Do you want me to buy you an ipod?-
Okay. No strings attached right? :D
10.Let's sit together in the bus
Riiighhtt..
11. Hi baby
I'm not your baby. That word irks me.
12. Your still handsome/beautiful!
Shut up and let me go. >_>
13.I still LOVE you!
That's why I "broke" up with you. :D
14.Can I visit your house?
Stop stalking me!
15.Do you love me?
As a friend yeah. As someone else, no. Now, stop bothering me and go get a life.




What a crazy ex. LOL

once upon a time there lived a girl.
who detested cockroaches and lizards.
well, she fear roaches more.
one day, before she went to school, she noticed her dog going near the cabinet under the sink.
the dog never did that and she was curious.
there was a giant cockroach and she attempted to kill it with bug spray.
it tried to flee back to the sink and then she saw another roach.
and screamed.
over the past two days.
the roach had already died.
the dog killed the other.
and she just killed a small one.


why cockroach why?
go back to the streets where you reside.
not my home.
how do you fly thirteen storeys up?

pfft. i hate roachs.
there's a corpse in my living room now.

the d to the e to the l i c i o u s.

Today was the last day of school. It was somewhat overwhelming.
I'll miss my desk. And the classroom.
And every single person in my class. (Okay, not everyone :P)

School started off in the hall and ended at 1:35pm in the classroom. We had a small gig of a band and later two guitarists which was quite awesome. I'm still quite amazed by the guy who was playing the classical guitar. I guess practice really does make perfect. Anyway, I followed my mum to the parents teacher conference with my form teacher.

I ended up laughing a lot, I don't know why. My mum and my teacher were fake smiling. Or something. (: I did okay but mum still wants me to go to the better stream next year.

Tomorrow I'm watching High School Musical 3 with Hana and Mira and maybe Brandon and Ting. HSM isn't that cheesy, okay, it is. The trailers just seemed intriguing enough.

I don't know what will happen.
Ha, we'll see.

The outing was terribly boring. More we learned about Singapore and Singapore.
The short videos they made us watch and the interactive game they made us play was still somewhat interesting though.
There were plenty of other students from different schools but we didn't interact with them. They were really out of our age group and looked really strange.

In the bus back to school, we fell asleep because the walking and talking made us tired.

I like walking in White Sands eating chocolate sundaes from Mcdonalds with Diyanah. (:
Though it rained cats and dogs and we were getting sogged.

29/40 people are going to my class barbeque.
We still do not have enough money.

i'm making every possible mistake

hat maI fucking hate spammers.
Spammers who talk bullshit. Utter bullshit.
I hope karma gets you, you fucking retarded spammer with no freaking life.
And I hope that you can learn how to spell.
I know karma will too get me for this, scolding a spammer so harshly. :l


Today everyone was forced to listen to a two hour talk about bullies and gangsters.
Today my class won first place in handball.
Today the house door jammed twice.
Today, I finally went to the giant field near my home to take photos. It wasn't exactly as I expected it to be. The grass wasn't soft as grass, it was rough and the ends of each piece of grass was sharp and prickly. It hurt but the photos came out nicely.
I can't wait for the dress to arrive.

I guess today was okay.
-

tag reply!

@MessedUp: I know! I know! I owe you like a week or something! XD

i screamed for the first time in a couple of months.
well, it was getting dark and i was going to switch on the lights in the living room. what i didn't see was a lizard that well, was just right in front of my face. it was dark, i was shocked and i hated lizards since forever and well, screamed.
really loudly.

and it interested my dog, she was wagging her tail so curiously and happily at me when my scream freaked the lizard and it scattered off to some part of the wall and i ran back to my room.

today, we watched the pursuit of happyness in school.
yes, that was the only interesting thing that happened today in school.

i posted the money to bellyn today but the money changer cheated me of 10rm. but i'll buying something else from her in january so i guess i'll return the 10rm to her. (:


i still hate lizards though.

oh sheeeeeee. t.

the yamaha receipt is missing.
my keys are missing.

it's a missing story.



i woke up at ten thirty today. eight hours of sleep, the most i had this week.
it's so good to wake up with more than six to five hours of sleep. (:
i thought my sister, mum and i were suppose to go to my aunt's house so my mum could teach my cousin the abcs but we ended up at city plaza, a mall full of clothes of unknown brands.
mum bought me a shirt and a dress.

well, i don't know what i put in my bag that made it weigh so heavily.
well, i had erin in my bag, a hardcover library book(the possible cause), a broken umbrella that i took by mistake and a hard plastic water bottle.
yeah.
anyway, i reached home at night. today was okay though i felt somewhat sick while i was at city plaza.


i'm drinking coke now.
i want a credit card.

sleep forever

i'm suffering from a mood swing.
and it's not a good one. )__:

the past few days has been really bad. trashpicking, horrible exam results, failing relationships, tiredness, mood swings and the dreaded red light.
today, the exam results were finally released.
chinese, physics and art.

my mum is going to kill me. literally.
i failed science and chinese. and not so well for art.

yay, three fails.
English - B4
Math - D
Chinese - D
Science - D
Art - B3
Literature - B4

i'm stupid. get over it. :D
today, my dad was waiting for me outside school again, i felt strangely embarrassed..
anyhow, i intended to go watch a movie alone while my dad had other thoughts.
"She's gonna watch a movie with her boyfriend,"
"I DON'T HAVE A BOYFRIEND,"
i don't think he believes me.
oh well, i guess it's his way of letting go of his little girl.

anyway, i fell asleep, i'm getting tired lately.
i'll like to curl up in bed and sleep and never ever wake up.
but that's being dead. i don't want to die.
yet. i spent my afternoon sleeping and watching mindless television.
i can't believe i watched a barbie movie. it was sappy and idiotic but i liked it. because there wasn't anything else on the telly. the movie was oversaturated; cliqued, had gay puppies, made everyone else look dumb and gave the guys dumb roles. i liked that though, girl power ftw.

polaroid

Po-lar-oid
1. A trademark used for a specially treated, transparent plastic capable of polarizing light passing through it, used in glare-reducing optical devices.
2. A trademark used for a camera and film that produce instant photographs.

hi.
i am not perfect and i am no genius.
i'm in the midst of recieving my end of year exam results and they're horrible. i guess that's what you get for last minute studying. my parents expect me to go to express next year which seems pretty hopeless now. even though my dad is easy to please, my mum is like the crudest movie or food critic, she expects only the best. or, you could most likely recieve a very bad review from her if she was one. i failed biology and math, well, it was quite likely..
anyhow, my mum was really displeased.
oh well, i'll try getting her good food to please her. or, leave her alone and let my sister be her favourite.

today, i arrived late for school. i came when the final bell rang and they closed the gates to school. apparantly, we had to pick up trash for being late and it was impossible as the school was really clean. i felt really low to ask one of the cleaners to give me some trash, it was really stupid. .__.
anyhow, i gotten my english and chemistry marks. i did okay.


Name a friend from A to Z.
A- Adeline
B- Bellyn
C- Carrie
D- Diyanah
E- Estella
F- Farahin
G-
H- Hana
I-
J- Joyce
K-Karissa
L- Livio
M- Mira
N- Nurdiana
O-
P-
Q- Queenie
R-Reuben
S- Safarah
T- Ting Fang
U-
V- Vanessa
W- Wai Hong
X-
Y- Yixin
Z-
1. How many siblings does A have? Two.

2. What does B sms you about? Lolita. :D

3. What is C's nickname? She had one but then it faded away.

4. How did you get to know D? I met Diyanah on the orientation camp when i first started secondary school.

5.How desperate is E? Nah, not really.

6. How much older/younger is F than you? I'm seven months two days older.

7. Do you think you'll fall in love with G? I know no one starting with a letter G.

8. Are H and I together? Problem is, there's no one at I..

9. What happens if J suddenly turns into your enemy? Oh crap.

10. Under what conditions would K and L get married? There's no one at K..

11. How many people you know with M's name? There's only one Mira. :D

12. Do you enjoy talking on the phone with N? I spoken once with Nurdiana. It was really awkward and random. XD

13. Do you think O knows P? O and P are nobodies. Maybe nobodies know each nobodies.

14. How geeky is Q? Maaaybe.

15. Is R very popular? No. Hell no.

16. What happens if S likes you? :D

17. Is T a very random person? Sometimes. (;

18. How are U and V related? They aren't. But Vanessa is awesome.

19. Do you take W as anything else other than a friend? No.

20. When was the last time you met up with X? ...

21. Are Y and Z enemies? She has no enemies.

22. Of A to Z which do you love most and will give love? D, T, Y, V, N, because they're my best friends. And, everyone else. (:

23. Will you betray anyone of them? Uh. No.

24. Have you ever loved and confessed to anyone from A to Z? My imaginary friend did.









yay.