you hold me now: November 2009

Sunday, November 29, 2009

ugly green flower bouquets.

hello, i managed to skip the wedding. though it made my parents really mad and then i thought of this really cute relative of mine but then he's a generation later than me but we're around the same age so oh gosh. i hate being so young and all my cousins are so...old. -_-

okay whatever.

today's my mum's birthday. i think she is mad at me. OF COURSE SHE'S MAD AT ME.

i'm trying to draw the eiffel tower, it looks like an ugly palace now.

Friday, November 27, 2009

the glow in the dark stars on the ceiling

i kinda regret waiting for a late dinner from my family, my stomach is giving me hell right now.

i went back to cat socrates today, ahh, happy memories. it's a really awesome place just to chill out and draw and talk and drink iced coffee. and walk around the shop a million times, staring at notebooks and random people.

i wanted to wear black to the wedding tomorrow. then i realised, hey, it's a happy occasion, not a funeral! but i seriously don't have anything awesome to wear to a wedding. i told my mum that jean should go ahead since jean adores good food and she's a way better companion than i am. (sounds wrong) but noo, i have to go. she told me a lot of young people are there.

lol, rightttt.

i'm still bent on making excuses. :D

i want to chill with my friends and celebrate carrie's birthdaaay.

a shattered conscious staring right back at me

i just went for a class barbeque. 3/4 of the class went. it was weird because the weather kept changing. it was raining, then it was really sunny, then parts of the park were sunny and parts of the park was crazy with rain. it was a bit insane.

still, even though there were only 3 girls, it was fun. besides being scared to death thanks to a giantass bat and having my notebook being battered again, i would totally do it again.

there were like, half cooked chicken wings and bacon; too many photos taken (i will upload some tomorrow), too many swears being spread around, a lot of laughs, dancing and korean music.

teehee. i look like a retard in those pictures. weeee.

i'm going out for a film photoshoot tomorrow. i think.

and i stupidly got myself to attend some extremely distant relative of mine's wedding.

she's my dad's sister's daughter. my cousin?! again?! (another cousin just got married previously) i think it's a big event though, when i realised what i agreed to because i just woke up, my mum told me it was too late because seats are limited and it was only five minutes and my dad already called my aunt.

or, my mum just sabotaged me to tag along with her.

i do not like fake smiling at distant relatives and then they go,"oh, your daughter?"

"the last time i've seen her, she was a baby!" maybe, they lied, i bet they never ever seen me before. or,"oh my! she grown so tall!" geez, it makes me feel like i grown a bit but i haven't.

"she looks a lot like you/your husband!"

apparently, you can see my distinct dislike with attempted connections with distant relatives.

did that sound too complicated for you? oh, i just don't like to go for family gatherings?!

i feel too young. i was born twenty/ten years too late with my cousins.

if only i was born in 1983, i'll be 29, already influenced from the 80s and 90s and getting wed to some guy. then my almost same age (bloody distant) cousins can come to my wedding.

and not when i'm 25 and they're 41 or 51. or 62.

i'm not even sure whether i'll get married at 25.

IT DOES NOT HELP THAT MY OTHER COUSIN'S CHILDREN ARE AROUND MY AGE AND THAT THEY THINK THAT THEY'RE SO COOL THEY IGNORE MY EXISTENCE.

maan. and i thought i could finally have some awesome teenage relatives. :(

oh, they're probably too rich, they looked rich.

oh shit, i just talked a whole lot of shit.