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oh, i hate how much i am so inspired in the afternoon and then it flys away when night approaches.

i had a good day today.
even though the librarian threatened carrie and i for no reason..

"Girl, I'm warning you not to use handphone. I will catch you one,"

she's creepy.

dog spam.

TEEEETH.

i took photos!

but my doll photos came out craptacular.

okay, i am really off to do some math. aha.

-oh love oh love oh honey oh.

Hello love!

My thoughts are so overdue, my dear.

Who's my love? Who's my dear?

No one so shut your mind up and read. : )


I was randomly hit by the inspiration ray.

I am so inspired right now. Even though I am going to fail my cooking exam and hopefully the auntie will not throw away my art file and my twelve dollar water soluble colour pencils or else my mother will eat me alive! :D

Tomorrow I think I am going to buy myself a new diary and colour pens so I won't steal Carrie's ones anymore.

Okay, I am off to do my math homework and take photos!

Why am I so happy.
I do not know.


Oh wa wa wa wa.

bloody dear.

i had a nose bleed last week.

i don't know what's my problem but here are some scans of the bloody

tissue.

they look like ruptured and bleeding intestines. : )

doggy love.

old unedited photos.

yeah.
wang likes carrie's snacks.

i couldn't upload the originals because they were too huge and i couldn't find any versatile photo resizer. z_z

so come and butterfly with me

all my mother and i do is argue
argue
argue
argue
argue


and scream.

"TURN THAT MUSIC DOWN"
"JUST CLOSE YOUR EARS"

slam lock the door.

and then i realise since the internet's down, i've been using another computer and i just locked myself in a room that isn't my room.
she doesn't really care.

"YOU'RE JUST LYING TO YOURSELF"
"YEAH SO WHAT I WANT TO LIE TO MYSELF"

"Yeah, study shit,"

that is just an insult.

i'm not talking to you.
no no no.



i'm glaring at my papers, they're screaming,"ITS YOUR FUTURE"
geez, just give me an air ticket to toyko, my sister's camera, a luggage and erin and that's my future. i can dream, can't i?

i'm not expecting anything this year...
i'm probably just going to pass okay and sigh and apologise to diyanah.


mind you, i'm babbling.
fuck.

i wanted to take photos but my sister's camera ran away.
i haven't been inspired for almost a month, this is the longest idea block i've ever experienced.

i'm not feeling any better.

my mum just yelled at me because i wasn't looking at her while she was speaking to me.
i was listening to her.

we had a really awesome argument. and i can't really scream, i sound like some guy whose voice is breaking.


i am so misunderstood.
and the medicine isn't really working, my fever hasn't gone away and i have the flu.

i don't think i'm going to school tomorrow. : (
ah, the negativity.

shsalqlqeiilija.

oh boo, i have a temperature of 38.2. :<
i'm probably not going to school, i feel terrible (in the body and for skipping school).

no wonder i've been so uninspired.

i'm not okay.

You say you read me like a book
But those pages are torned and frayed

- I'm Not Okay, MCR

coughcough.

Hello, I am sick.
Not that sick, just sick.

I caught a cough and it became a sore throat and whenever I hack, my head hurts so bad.
I can't eat anything because it's either far too oily or spicy. :c

I haven't done anything today and I've been using my sickness as an excuse. That's stupid right?
So far, I have spilled sauce over my shirt, been nagged by my mother who is sicker than me (which sounds wrong in all ways possible) and slept.

And yes, I am still hacking.
I don't know if this may fetch an excuse to skip school but I haven't missed a day so far..
Hrm, maybe.

Oh, where is dad with dinner!
I smell food. This may be a hallucination.

"Tell me when your whole life's up in smoke, that means its time for a promotion," - The Devil Wears Prada

a wish to be a cactus with a big flower on it.

bellyn drew this for me.
it's pretty.

it's so sweet, i love everything in it. : )

i did this last week but i couldn't be bothered to upload.

i hate how my thumb got cut off.

clinging onto hopelessnesss.

hello, i had an okay friday.

i had to play a song on the harmonica for music, mr lim called it disturbing.
i don't know whether that's a good or bad remark.

maybe it's so thought provoking, it disturbs mr lim.
yeah, who am i kidding, i played it so terribly!

i went for the speech day rehearsal, i have photography duty and we had to go to all the rehearsals. -_-
i only found out that the guest of honour is someone really important and i freaked out.

joelyn: do you remember that man?
mum: oh yes, he's very humble!
joelyn: he is minster of defence right?
dad: is he still the deputy prime minister?
mum: yes.
joelyn: prime minister of what?
dad: SINGAPORE
joelyn: WHAT HOW I THOUGHT HE WAS JUST MINISTER OF DEFENCE

i'm going to stalk this poor man for two hours next saturday, how mad.
some short teenager with hair of waves with a giantass camera, sitting in front of the stage with a bunch of other people with more cameras taking photos of you when you go up for a speech and give out awards.

i have to go to bed early tonight, i have an exam tomorrow.
and another on tuesday and rehearsal.

how sleepless.
and i guess i have to give his birthday a miss lol.
oh well, i'll just wish him happy birthday.

maybe i'll lose my way without you.


hey, i have only five and a half hours of sleep tonight.

rgsebihfdsihbfsa

oh fuck the bedbugs.

screw them, seriously.


one insignificant insect..
screwed everything. i broke my pen, my homework smells like coke and my table is sticky.
it doesn't help that i ranted to my parents who really did not care. -_-

they won't go away they won't go away they won't go away

.

ah, fat legs.

the grass hurt, they were all weedy. ;__;

i went to the airport on friday.

actually, i went there to study with ting shun and farahin.

we didn't really study in the end, we just ate lunch while i whined like some kid and we talked.

a lot.

yeah.

goodnight.

pink pages and keychains

journal.

i'm left on my last two pages, this is terrible. ):

well, my beloved journal has lasted me since last september..i need a new one but i'm too broke and i don't know where to get one.

and here are photos of my keychains i bought yesterday. ♥

and oh hay, it's my hand and me.

i look so bland.

and a photo of elyn that i wanted to upload on flickr but the photo just looked so bad. ._.

live high.

yep, i changed my blogskin.
i don't know why but i'm suddenly into simplicity.

this is jason.
he does not like my pillow.

and i can't believe it, i found rilakkuma in a flea market! ♥
i bought him with another cute keychain for only three dollars, what a steal. though rila looks slightly distorted.
and that's my sister with her crazy hand.

new eyechips.

and maybe you would like to see my mother.

blurred for non-identification purposes.

i'm one ungrateful git.

CAN YOU FEEL MY NEGATIVITY NOW.

Hello.
I'm suffering from a mood swing.

I just lost ten percent for my biology.

Isn't that just screwed? I really like biology but because I forgot and I don't know how forgot about my biology project and it's due the due date but no one bothers to do it because negativity and "oh i don't give a shoe about biology" spreads fast..

Oh, such a grave grave mood swing.

parents

would you like parents who don't give a shoe about you?
or parents who annoy the crap out of you and when you rant it all out to your friends,
one of them would say,"It's because they care,"

and then you'll roll your eyes and say,"Yeah, right,"

mm. random.
i don't feel inspired.

and oh my god i'm hungry but there's nothing to eat. (again)

~

"Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist," - Everything We Had, The Academy Is...

it's not who, it's when

since i really have to save money now, i've decided to do this.
i think i'll be pasting it on the zip of my wallet.
or the side of it.

photo by spiderpop.
i did a quiz last night on facebook on what kind of serial killer i should be.
i kinda laughed because i really hate people screaming and come on, i can't be a classic murderer though the film, freddie vs jason was kinda scary.

okay, i swear the name jason is taunting me.

daskieajkwqeoqwurewji2j*(

nothing inspires me anymore.
school has been eating and chewing me up and spitting out someone really dull.

and i can only type my woes on this dingy keyboard.
stare at my blythe and listen to rooney.

doodlfdsujflfou.

hippo love.

I finally recieved the souveneir Bertram got for me from Shanghai.

It's the cutest hippo! <3
He's hugging a heart and he's so fluffy, hahaha. I nearly named him Desmond.
Actually, his name is jason.
Well. Ask Bertram, it was his idea, lol.

I realised all my stuffed toys are all male. Hahaha.

Wangwang was harassed today.
She was hugged, tugged and petted so many times that I can't remember.