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i'll just have to keep on loving.

if you don't want to see me again, i would understand.

i always dreamt of it. you would leave us and you will leave and i will take care of the two of them.

i promised myself ever since i was young that i wouldn't leave them even if they broke my heart too many times and there are times i cry because of them and that you know, that i know they're the only reason why i truly cry.

the cracks in our relationships are cracking. the broken shards we tried to tape/glue, those cracks we still can see. there's nothing we can do because i know even if i tried to confront it they would deny it.

they would deny it so bad and they would blame us.

sometimes i wonder why they are who they are.

why does money drive them so badly.

why? ._. fuck.

i want to wake up kicking and screaming, i want to know that my heart is still beating.

an-yo-ha-sae-yo.

ever thought i'll write on this space ever again? hmm, i didn't either. i just felt like it.

i'm so driven tonight. though God knows i should been in dreamland an hour ago.

sighhh.

so how are you? and how is me?

i'm alright, i'm okay, i still swear though i seem like i don't.

i should write more, talk soon okay?