you know what sucks? when you know you're face to face to a distraction and you know you're not suppose to go forward, you're not suppose to even touch that distraction but the curiousity in you just wants to know and step forward and you just feed yourself with the distraction.
i am so distracted today. and i've been online since 8pm to do DNT. i am not tired but i feel frustrated. with that distraction, with work, with teachers, with people. and that my negative emotions has really made me a real paranoid person and that i realised i thought some things wrongly and then it makes me wonder why i was so convinced in the first place.
and when you're so inspired and so eager to do something but at the same time you feel so helpless and useless and you sit there where you're suppose to do something but all you do is just sit there and ask God,"How?" and then you realise you feel the regret that everyone feels when that burden comes but yet it's too late. when you realise the people who has been there all the time are now gone and now you're just so unsure what to do.
stupid distraction, go away. go away.
never say you'll never like anybody because in the end, you'll never know what will hit you next. i gotta fight this away, i don't need to like a guy right now. not now.
sigh.
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