monday tuesday bleus

yeah, i spelt that wrongly for fun.
i think my life just got from level one of shit to level two of shit. for some reason, this morning, i really felt there wasn't any more hope. finances' shit, studies' shit, social life's shit, everything's shit. maybe i'm just being pessimistic. yep, i'm being pessimistic. it's driving me nuts that my sister keeps coming home late and i can't use the internet ESPECIALLY WHEN I NEED TO DO IT FOR E-LEARNING AND I'M GOING TO FAIL BECAUSE OF THAT WOMAN WHO IGNORES HER BLOODY PHONE CALLS. see, i'm really fed up about that.

well, i went out on monday. no photos, dslr got loaned out to sister's friend. -is literally screaming in her head- i brought along my diana though and carrie bought a hat. so while we were outside a starbucks in orchard and she was sitting down trying to get rid of the tag, i took a random shot of her with the diana. then a woman went,"hey, hey you, how old are you? thirteen?"and she told me i had a nice outfit and she wondered whether the diana was fake or real. i felt really awesome. hahaha.

well, yeah. i wished i had that replacement phone in The Replacements. wouldn't it be cool?
"Hello Fleemco, can you please replace my maths teacher who can actually teach?"
"Hello Fleemco, can you please replace my chinese teacher?"
"Hello Fleemco, can you replace all the guys in Singapore with cuter guys?"

i was kidding about that last one. boooo, i can't go to crescendo. meh.
i had an outfit for it planned! oh well, looks like i'm gonna wear it randomly one day when i get back out to orchard. i fell in love with a zara sweater.

(insert photo of zara sweater)

i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
i really need to get up and do the things that are screwing up, i need to study, i need to talk to someone, i need to talk to diana. i miss texting her and laughing so randomly sometimes when i read those texts.

song of the day for now, warning sign by coldplay.
it's not bad if you need a nice slow song to relax. (uhh, if someone would actually go and listen to the song, kudos to you.)