nine minutes.

dad and mum: happy birthday to you
jean: you're born in a zo-
dad and mum: happy birthday to yooo

it was awkward funny awesome.

and this is nigel gregor, he's my new robot friend.

happy birthday.

Let's all congratulate us with another cup of tea
A very merry unbirthday to you

Now statistics prove
Prove that you've one birthday
Imagine just one birthday every year
Ah, but there are 364 unbirthdays
Precisely why we're gathered here to cheer

A very merry unbirthday
To me?
To you
A very merry unbirthday
For me?
For you
Now blow the candle out, my dear
And make your wish come true
A very merry unbirthday to you



-

i am now fourteen years old.
i feel odd. : )

happy unbirthday to me

the heart burns.
i think i lost my love for birthdays, i feel like it's been forever.
which it is, i mean, i waited 364 days and now it's only three hours away.

life's been too weird for me, it's so strange.
i cry when i'm not suppose to, i laugh when i'm not suppose to.
and now i've become moody.

it's like something crawled into my emotions and flipped a switch.

i'm not anticipating this.

a jellyfish tripped on his eyeball and he died.

Joelyn swallowed the cookies at once and sure enough, in half an hour, they were able to trip beautifully. They tripped like how that uncle in the shop cheats ten cents out of your candy whenever you buy from him.. Three times.

Just then, a selfish jellyfish leapt out from behind a cookies and tripped (name here) in the eyeball. "Aaargh!" (name here) screamed.
Things looked light. But Joelyn, although she was beautiful, knew she had to save her love. She grabbed a camera and, like how that uncle in the shop cheats ten cents out of your candy whenever you buy from him., beat the jellyfish beautifully until it ran off. "That will teach you to trip innocent people."

How could she expect (name here) to love someone with a gothic nose?
Joelyn gasped rudely. "But what about my gothic nose?"
"I like it," (name here) said tackily. "I think it's lame."
They bought a donkey, moved in together, and lived godly ever after.


the irony of it all.
thank you so much bellyn for the link, it made my day. <3

tuesday bleue, it's mr roboto.

by heiyu.

i recieved a somewhat excited threat from my classmates today.

"hey joelyn! let's birthday bash you on friday!"
"but my birthday's on saturday.."
"so we'll bash you on friday!"


i do not adhere bashing.

i don't like it.
it sounds terrible.
and it's not fun, it's very..weird?
and i don't want to bring extra clothes to school because i'm growing another year older.
okay, maybe i'm scared lol.

anyway, i'll like to show you my new interest, tin toys. : )
i love wind up robots now, winding them up and seeing them go is so awesome.

this is by williskewl.


this is by earthfromtheground.

yay for flickr.
this inspiration is from the shop called cat socrates.
they sell such wonderful notebooks and vintage toys and have such a beautiful quaint ambience.

yeah.

i borrowed a book about european fashion designers from the library a couple days before. they had a lot of photos of fashion a few years before 2009. here are some of my favourite photos.

dune.

from c.neeon's fall winter 2006/7, haschmichmadchen.

marek straszewki.

from UEG's 2006 line, lifestyle packaging.

yeah.

tumblarity.

i don't know who took this.

my exams are over. : )
ironically, i couldn't come online because my mother was gaming.

don't ask.

so, i was stalking tumblr..and found this.

by bbones

my school's speech day is coming up and omfg, my name went missing.
it's just a stupid award anyway, i don't really think i want to go to an award ceremony and die waiting and collect my award..

and the spirit in my house really likes to bother me.
he ( i think the spirit is a boy lol or idk man ) sort of got me into trouble and my mum yelled at me.

and i'm not kidding, it's true. (i know you don't believe me)

-

i drew and coloured him in watercolour pencils and painted him on tuesday.
he's a monster.

and he's very much better in real life.

tomorrow's my final exam papers, i am so happy.

.

i got stereotyped online. it's...so wrong.


boys think i'm an ah lian.
oh my god, i feel offended!

do i seriously look like one? : (
singapore boys..tsk.

i should stay off tagged when i view the boys who add me there, their friends are mostly chinese girls...(sounds wrong)
well, you know what i mean.

there are so many girls in singapore and i get this stereotype?
i wonder.

but nobody knows.

today is very mundane.

i was suppose to study the whole day but it didn't go as planned.
i'm hungry.

my mum is angry with me.
my sister is just weird about my little ponies.
i think their songs are disgustingly gay even though they are cute.

i used to love them but i loved the old versions, the new versions are horrible.
why am i talking about them....

i'm hungry.
i feel like baked tuna with some potatoes and long beans.
mm.

okay, i'm off to study.

oh la la.

life is not doing good for me, i guess.
or, i am one big bag of negativity! : D

rilakkuma is taunting me, i saw him today in artbox! he's so cute.
i got new shoes and a vest and i saw this pretty dress but something went wrong with my mood and i became damn moody on how i'm so petite.

and some other things that i am not willingly to share here.
so that dress went goodbye. it was expensive so to add, so yeah.

mother's day was okay for me, we had an expensive lunch.
and i'm home alone now so i'm going to try to study for physics before the sun goes down.

and all the constellations shined down for us to see

my parents bought me soup.
it's really good but oh my god, my mouth is burning.

i went for another study group with farahin, mira and ting shun today.
we only studied for forty-five minutes and then the slacking begun.

it was good fun.
now i have two days to cram or else i'm going to fail physics.

i did something strange today.
i played with the kitty living under my void deck and found out she has two names.
nina and tortoise! how cute, haha. and then she bit me..

and i went home, threw my bag on the armchair, leashed the dog with the dog leash, she went happy mad when i lifted her up and tried to lock the door while she slashed me with her sharp long nails..

and we walked for half an hour.

then i came back, watched some tv recordings and started studying.
i wanted to do physics but my calculator uses solar energy so it doesn't work at night unless i flash a flashlight at it so i decided to do biology.
but then i got distracted with elyn and started playing with her.
then i did more biology. then i started doing a card for my mum and then my family came back.

and now wangwang is sitting near me for some mutton.
ah.

she doesn't know how much words hurt.

and what a bloody coward to even daringly scold me and yet not say a thing when i reply.

that's stupid. : (

fuckfuckf.

hello dovefaces!
whatever that means, : )

i got my first hater! it feels so terrible and yet so deliciously awesome!

i scolded back! wanna see??! : DD


clicks!

i feel so aggravated and annoyed and yet so happy!
i spent three hours on art and that's what i recieve, a scolding about me having no unmentionables!
she even said i would never have a dick! but hey, i'm a girl so whatever! : D

oh my god, that person is a fucking idiot.

everything she said is absolutely me.

now i sound like hana!

oh ahh.

oh woop.

i don't like sundays.
it's the end of the weekend especially of a long weekend.

oh god, my stomach hurts so bad because stomach acid is eating on the lining of my stomach.
i did write that on purpose.

i think that's because i skipped dinner and i was suppose to heat up the curry and eat it but i didn't so here's the issue.

i have art to finish, to colour to paint.
i can't take photos because i have no camera.

i'm panicking because there's the exams next week.
i want to take art next year but my mum objects to it.

i like art, i really do. i want to do more and do better like photography but there are two million bloody obstacles in my bloody young life of mine that i'm wasting minutes and minutes and minutes and minutes.

this shows i should go pack my bag and go to bed.
and i am so insanely happy and jealous that bellyn gets to go to japan next month, it makes my heart feel so high and go so low but i think i will beg her for a souveneir or maybe not.
i miss going on holidays.

ohblablabla.

i wish my grandparents were still alive and i wish they could tell me stories about their life.

and i wish the bedbugs would stop sucking my blood before i become a mere husk.

: )

http://flickr.com/lenaah

you have to see her works.
you have to see her works.
you have to see her works.


you have to.
if you don't, you have no idea.

i think i know what i really want now.
a dslr, a new diary, some new pens, a cleaner house, a cleaner house, white walls and some new clothes to wear.

yes.
when i grow up, i want to live in a white apartment with white walls away from singapore.
i'll come back every december with my dog and cat, holding a different diary each time.
and my nifty digital slr and maybe even a film slung behind me and i'll say hello to all you people again.

i wonder if this will ever happen in five, six years.

yeah.

*

oh, i hate how much i am so inspired in the afternoon and then it flys away when night approaches.

i had a good day today.
even though the librarian threatened carrie and i for no reason..

"Girl, I'm warning you not to use handphone. I will catch you one,"

she's creepy.

dog spam.

TEEEETH.

i took photos!

but my doll photos came out craptacular.

okay, i am really off to do some math. aha.

-oh love oh love oh honey oh.

Hello love!

My thoughts are so overdue, my dear.

Who's my love? Who's my dear?

No one so shut your mind up and read. : )


I was randomly hit by the inspiration ray.

I am so inspired right now. Even though I am going to fail my cooking exam and hopefully the auntie will not throw away my art file and my twelve dollar water soluble colour pencils or else my mother will eat me alive! :D

Tomorrow I think I am going to buy myself a new diary and colour pens so I won't steal Carrie's ones anymore.

Okay, I am off to do my math homework and take photos!

Why am I so happy.
I do not know.


Oh wa wa wa wa.

bloody dear.

i had a nose bleed last week.

i don't know what's my problem but here are some scans of the bloody

tissue.

they look like ruptured and bleeding intestines. : )

doggy love.

old unedited photos.

yeah.
wang likes carrie's snacks.

i couldn't upload the originals because they were too huge and i couldn't find any versatile photo resizer. z_z

so come and butterfly with me

all my mother and i do is argue
argue
argue
argue
argue


and scream.

"TURN THAT MUSIC DOWN"
"JUST CLOSE YOUR EARS"

slam lock the door.

and then i realise since the internet's down, i've been using another computer and i just locked myself in a room that isn't my room.
she doesn't really care.

"YOU'RE JUST LYING TO YOURSELF"
"YEAH SO WHAT I WANT TO LIE TO MYSELF"

"Yeah, study shit,"

that is just an insult.

i'm not talking to you.
no no no.



i'm glaring at my papers, they're screaming,"ITS YOUR FUTURE"
geez, just give me an air ticket to toyko, my sister's camera, a luggage and erin and that's my future. i can dream, can't i?

i'm not expecting anything this year...
i'm probably just going to pass okay and sigh and apologise to diyanah.


mind you, i'm babbling.
fuck.

i wanted to take photos but my sister's camera ran away.
i haven't been inspired for almost a month, this is the longest idea block i've ever experienced.

i'm not feeling any better.

my mum just yelled at me because i wasn't looking at her while she was speaking to me.
i was listening to her.

we had a really awesome argument. and i can't really scream, i sound like some guy whose voice is breaking.


i am so misunderstood.
and the medicine isn't really working, my fever hasn't gone away and i have the flu.

i don't think i'm going to school tomorrow. : (
ah, the negativity.

shsalqlqeiilija.

oh boo, i have a temperature of 38.2. :<
i'm probably not going to school, i feel terrible (in the body and for skipping school).

no wonder i've been so uninspired.

i'm not okay.

You say you read me like a book
But those pages are torned and frayed

- I'm Not Okay, MCR

coughcough.

Hello, I am sick.
Not that sick, just sick.

I caught a cough and it became a sore throat and whenever I hack, my head hurts so bad.
I can't eat anything because it's either far too oily or spicy. :c

I haven't done anything today and I've been using my sickness as an excuse. That's stupid right?
So far, I have spilled sauce over my shirt, been nagged by my mother who is sicker than me (which sounds wrong in all ways possible) and slept.

And yes, I am still hacking.
I don't know if this may fetch an excuse to skip school but I haven't missed a day so far..
Hrm, maybe.

Oh, where is dad with dinner!
I smell food. This may be a hallucination.

"Tell me when your whole life's up in smoke, that means its time for a promotion," - The Devil Wears Prada

a wish to be a cactus with a big flower on it.

bellyn drew this for me.
it's pretty.

it's so sweet, i love everything in it. : )

i did this last week but i couldn't be bothered to upload.

i hate how my thumb got cut off.