if you don't want to see me again, i would understand.

i always dreamt of it. you would leave us and you will leave and i will take care of the two of them.

i promised myself ever since i was young that i wouldn't leave them even if they broke my heart too many times and there are times i cry because of them and that you know, that i know they're the only reason why i truly cry.

the cracks in our relationships are cracking. the broken shards we tried to tape/glue, those cracks we still can see. there's nothing we can do because i know even if i tried to confront it they would deny it.

they would deny it so bad and they would blame us.

sometimes i wonder why they are who they are.

why does money drive them so badly.

why? ._. fuck.

bing bam boom

this tuesday, i went to learn how to cycle. yes, you can start laughing, i have zero idea on how to ride a bike. i did try it out and even after two hours of falling off a bike twice, letting it fall onto the ground more than five times and pedaling of fail, i didn't manage to learn how to cycle successfully. i'm very close though, i just keep losing balance. : (

okay, when i heard from my parents that they were gonna get my sister an iphone, i went crazy. apparently, i guess, i'm getting a ds. or not. well, i'm becoming delirious because of that. maybe it's because i have too much time on my hands and i really don't want to do chores when i have nothing to do. my mum just blew me off because i asked her whether she saw my sims 2 cd boxes. they went missing after she packed my room. .__.

"...i have more important things to do!"

right. : \

okay, that's it for joelyn's "oh i'm so sad and so bored" post.

screw it.

printer died on me.

photo editor died on me.

diana going to die on me because my sister wants to borrow it.

parents already gave up on me.

aircon died on me.

i'm on the verge. i can't even do what i love to do anymore.

fuck.