imaginary breeze

calvine says i should go to bed now.

m.

today i went new year shopping with my family.
not really.

we spent two hours driving to malaysia for the trip, got lost for 45 minutes, drove around like lost tourists and ended up at city square, our usual shopping mall instead.
i didn't buy anything since i became self-conscious on how my leggings didn't match my clothes and stayed in the toilet for five minutes till my mum and sister gave up and walked away.
so my dad and i went back to the car where we sat in boredom and then went out again. by then i was just wearing my skirt alone with my shirt and people kept staring at it.
i think it was because there was a dried blood stain from two years ago and some pasta sauce..

that made me even more self-conscious.
anyway, two hours later, we somehow found my mum and my sister and my mum went nutty on why we suddenly disappeared and such.

and she's thinking of bringing me to a doctor because i've become so thin and i wouldn't eat as much as i did like i used to.


my sister is being a pain since she's been playing all my latest favourite songs over and over and over again.
i use her macbook to bluetooth songs to my phone for the convenience but in return she gets the songs and she keeps playing them.
which drives me crazy because she doesn't really connect herself to the radio like i do most of the time.

where's the originality??!
and my favourite restaurant at city square isn't my favourite anymore, the food and service sucks so much now. ):

someday you'll find me caught beneath a landslide

in a champagne supernova in the sky.

how many special people change, how many lives live it strange?
where were you while we were getting high?
slowly walking down the hall faster than a cannonball
where were you while we were getting high?

i'm actually listening to that song right now.
maan, i feel so refreshed! thirteen hours of sleep!
let me tell you what happened.

last night, i was only on the computer for an hour, i hardly do that.
i plugged in my earphones and started playing music really loud. the cable was back on so i was deciding to watch october road since i missed two episodes already. which was at ten, it was then eight. pretty much, i fell asleep till 12:40am when my mum told me to go to my room to sleep or else i'll bend my back. (i was lying in a strange position on the armchair)

though i was semi-conscious during the hours i slept there, my mum and sister were watching reunion dinner, it's a chinese comedy drama and they were watching it in different areas..
my mum was in the room, my sister in the living room.

okay, you all know my manical laugh right?
imagine it echoing and even louder. i just suffered that.
all i could see on the tv was a guy with a black eye and my sister and mum were laughing like freaks.

"HAHAHAHA!" laughs my sister.
"HAHAHAHHAHAHA!" laughs my mother.

they did that twice. -_-


it was freaky. i am not gonna laugh really loud, i'll try.
it's scary now..

okay, i'm off outside before the wonderful morning weather goes away.
since i am never awake in the morning. (:

he broke her doggy heart

wangwang and mickey broke up.
and he somehow ignored her.

wangwang is currently happy since my sister is home from ambassador camp.
she has ignored my existence. ):

i fell down.
i hurt my elbow thrice.

ah bengs can swear eleven times within three minutes.

"f*** you!"
"haha"
"f*** you!"
"pass me the ball"
"f*** you la, b*stard!"
"haha, pass to me la,"
"oy, f*** you!"
"f*** you!"

and then, the stupid basketball hit my elbow. they don't know the word "sorry".

and then "f*** you!" gets repeated eleven times.


i was at the playground today.
i slipped on a slide and hurt my elbow.
then i hit a pillar with that elbow.

then i fell on another slide and my knee had internal bleeding.

joelyn, you freaking hazard to yourself.
even my imaginary friend agrees.



i think the new librarian in my school hates me.

-

"Hey Avery, how you doing up there?"
"Get me down from here, you abusing crazy teenager,"
"Mmm."
"MY BACK HURTS."

i reckon.

i took these a day ago.

avery just wants to be loved.

wangwang is going to be fetched by mickey tomorrow. :3

youtube claim.

i tried to upload the video on youtube.
i put it on private.

i thought the upload didn't go through. but it did.
and youtube filed a copyright claim on the song even though the song was so soft.

i got annoyed by them and deleted the video on impulse.

i should have clicked dispute, that video would have wasted a minute and a half of your life.

oh well. someone bug me next time if they wanna see it and i'll do whatever to hook it online.
and i've been a good student lately, doing all my homework and such. heehee.
and my number has finally been cancelled, it's a dead line.

so, don't bother to contact me anymore. haha.

one thing to do.

i heard this on the radio this morning.
it feels really whimsical. haha.
and i think i'm really should get sleep or else i'll be dead in school and half-conscious at home.

i'm so glad that my mouth doesn't say what my conscious screams.

these are old photos. i meant to post a video but it took ages and i gave up.

old polaroid

i just wanted to get an A4 textbook exercise book. and then the whole shelf collasped.
i have an avalanche of books to clean up tomorrow.

we're spinning again and again

Green shadow, water weight all over, all over me
The end will shelter me away from me
Can we meet again
Meet and meet and meet and meet again?
Can you fill the can
If you can't fill me?

Who you following?
Who you starting to move like?
Who you falling for?
Who you falling for?
Whose lies?
Who you following?
Who you falling for?
This sound's on your side

Secret blue, purple, pink, and green right over it
Hold on because the coldest hasn't thawed yet
Well, if we meet again
Meet and meet and meet and meet again
Can you catch the can
If you can't fill it?

Well, how will you want something to hit?
We'll spin it again and again and again and again
What's your crime?
What's your crime?
Well, how will you want?
How does she sit?
We're spinnin again and again and again and again
What's your crime?
What's your, what's your, what's your, what's your
What's your crime, crime, crime?
What's your, what's your, what's your, what's your, what's your
What's your crime?

Don't you feel you're growing up undone?

I pretty much stole this from mark, it's a quiz where you set your music player on shuffle and the songs selected will be your answers. I have a library of 749 songs so let's hope we get some good songs playing. Haha.

1.If someone says, "Is this okay?" you say?
Wake Up Call - Maroon 5
Erm, okay, lol.

2.How would you describe yourself?
Supermassive Black Hole - Muse
All i hear from the song is "You're simply so divine".
okay, no comment...

3.What do you like in a girl/guy?
Five Colours In Her Hair - Mcfly
Apparantly, weirdos. -_-

4.How do you feel today?
By Your Side - CocoRosie
Okay, I suppose "loveydovey".

5.What is your life's purpose?
Papercuts - Gym Class Heroes
Giving people papercuts or recieving papercuts..

6.What is your motto?
I'm Scared - Duffy
LOLOLOLOLOLOL. Ahahaha, this is ridiculous.

7. What do your friends think of you?
Talk You Down - The Script
HAHAHA, I'm a stubborn arse who doesn't listen?

8. What do you think of your parents?
Fugainaiya - Yuki (OST Honey & Clover)
Since I don't know a word of japanese and it's a happy song and the only english words are love story, i think it says i love them. or something.

9. What do you think about very often?
Decode - Paramore
Confusing love? Decoding? And I thought my windows media player "knew" me.

10.What is 2 + 2?
Maps - The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Maps..

11.What do you think of your best friend?
Mouthwash - Kate Nash
Mouthwash..mm. Pretty much, this song is about a person's imperfections and it's very a sweet and meaningful song. (:

12.What do you think of the person you like?
Littlest Things - Lily Allen
What, a break up song?
How tragic.

13.What is your life story?
Sea Lion Woman - Feist
Hahahahha, I'm gonna be a Sea Lion Woman, who drinks coffee and tea.

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
Everybody But Me - Lykke Li
everybody but me..what, i hate myself?

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Modern Romance - The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
riight..

16.What will you dance at your wedding?
Tamagawa - Spitz (Another OST of Honey & Clover)
It's pretty much a japanese love song..a slow song that sounds slightly depressing.

17.What will they play at your funeral?
Feel Good - Gorillaz
Wooooo, everybody's celebrating at my funeral. They're glad I'm dead??
I must be a terrible person.

18.What is your hobby/interest?
Dare - Gorillaz
Dares? Okaay..

19.What is your biggest fear?
Little Bit - Lykke Li
This is one of the best love songs I've ever heard, I suppose, love?
How random.

21.What do you think of your friends?
When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne
Aww. I'll be depressed.

22. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
Dramatic - Yuki (YET ANOTHER OST OF HONEY & CLOVER)
Dramatic sex? OMG LOLLOLOL, I'm laughing my head off.

23.What will you post this as?
Great DJ - The Ting Tings
The drums, the drums, the drums, the drums.
Haha, this is funny.


What happened to question 20?

dolly spam.

good evening, i took a lot of photos today.
but my sister's camera pretty much hated me and gave me bad quality photos. i'm sad, i really liked the photos. ):
so, here's a bunch of outtakes.

i was taking a photo of erin today.
but she fell asleep.
then, she pretended to be a real doll. it was really scary, she really looked lifeless.


of course, the girl scared herself silly.

-

♠. joelyn says:
woo, it's so loud?
♠. joelyn says:
woo.
JOELYN CHEN, do you mind? it's close to 2am and you're tuning your guitar? says:
yaaaa. u gay female dog.

i wasn't tuning my guitar, i was playing it randomly. ;__;
i guess it was out of tune and erm, it did sound like someone deserved to hear shit music.

deadpigheads

Family.

ah, we were having horfun for supper. i didn't really eat and i was talking to mummy about the photography club.
gosh, i really look like a fag..

anyway, today we went shopping.

i got a new cardigan, wallet and shoes. i'll post photos soon, maybe tomorrow.

i did a lot of thinking today.

i wish the growth spurt came.

and i could read minds.

because i'm always paranoid.

i'm not so good at taking photos of food, so here's some tiramisu anyway.

boom.

and to end, here's mickey.

this was taken three weeks ago. and that's a kayak and a kayaker in the background.

and after we ate supper, dad parked his car at the back of a market stall and we saw a bunch of pink things.

i realised they were pig bodies.

headless pig bodies..eek.

calculations.

$179.3.

i actually started studying for the first time since ages..
but the problem is, i forgot all the methods. -_-

haha, i think i'll ask diyanah if she has notes.
but still, who the heck studies after the first day of school??

i hate the situation.

i think my school life is going to be a bore so i suppose you could expect groaning and moaning from me about it.
i couldn't really say that the first day of school was great, it was okay. although, i felt real excitement and happiness to returning to school and meeting my classmates again, i missed them so much.
but then again, i have some really horrible male egoists in my class, their boasts disgust me..
to sum it up, it was just more boring talks about rules and the current things in the world while i attempted to keep my head up and not doze off..

wangwang had a shredding fur thing today.
and i think mickey and her on a good terms now, they shared a bunch of kisses.
oh yes, today i was being a weirdo therefore the new profile.
and after mark and jieshen left, carrie and i put mickey and wang on the kiddy swings and they were swinging around..

wooo, it feels so good with blurred eyesight.
and i think i'm gonna be a weirdo by asking mr david to change my seat.


strange, i feel the need to go to express for diyanah. hee.

new year resolutions.

and i forgot about that.

i have plenty to write so er..if you hate long sentences you can skip this entry.

i resolve to do more photography.

i resolve to write more.

i resolve to be more optimistic.

i resolve to save money properly.

i resolve to keep a list on items i buy.

i resolve not to throw tantrums.

i resolve to know how to spell tantrum.

i resolve to actually try studying for express or do better in studies.

i resolve in making more friends.

i resolve to try getting a sister for erin.

i resolve to be less judgmental.

i resolve to read more.

i resolve not to hate the shitty and horribly boring teachers.

i resolve not to use much singlish.

i resolve to speak proper english.

i resolve not to fall for boys since my taste in them are terrible.

i resolve to improve my taste on boys.

i resolve to curse all those egoistic boys who believe in sexism.

i resolve to ignore all boys with an "ah beng'' touch.

i resolve to ignore all their stupid sicko jokes.

i resolve to practice on my guitar.

i resolve to prove to the egoistic boys in my guitar class that i can play as well to them.

i resolve to do better in photography.

i resolve to buy a blythe dress from Stella, a Pesopoco hat, a loou hat and blythe things.

dooodoodooo, such a long list!

afternoon rush.

monday morning, 9:42am. (slept at 5 last night, ha, stupid.)

mum: JOELYN WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP WE'RE GONNA BUY YOUR BOOKS

joelyn: huh???! can't you go alone?! 

mum: no! if you're not coming you can forget buying the books!

joelyn: ahh..gimme five minutes..

10:43am

mum: GET READY!

joelyn: ah, okay..

11:45am

mum: joelyn!! wake up!

joelyn: I'M AWAKE! (not)

12:16pm

joelyn: gah. -awakes-

mum: getreadybuyyourbooks!!!!

i am seriously terrible at waking up, i slept through two phone alarms and 2342342 screamings from my mum..

so..i just got my school books. how late is that?

plus my contact lenses and my shoes.

i'm somewhat antsy and nervous for school.

part of my mind screams,"AHH NOO NOT SCHOOL I HATE SCHOOL I WANNA STAY UP" and another goes,"Ooh, school, something fun!" and currently i'm mentally screaming,"AHH WHAT IF MY FORM TEACHER IS A GAYLO!"

of course not, hahaha.

i'm sleeping at 10 tonight, i never slept so "early" for so long!

though, if the cable was on, i would be able to watch heroes but i can't. ):

and it's clarified, wangwang is fat.

now, i'm going to shower her or something.

and do some ironing.

agent lamb sherbet.

This isn't your ordinary curly-haired Pet Society pet.

Named Lamb Sherbet.
He may look harmless but he isn't.
Even though he sleeps like a pet,

Sits like a pet, Happy like a pet,

Blows like a pet,

He is not.

Actually.....
He is James Issac Lamb Sherbet Bond AKA Agent 009. (Bunny Version)
Usually seen with pretty ladies..

...........He also likes to be washed.

And ducks. Have I mentioned ducks?
James I.L.S Bond has a complete infatuation with ducks.
Quack quack.


special thanks to yumi and yukino as the pretty ladies. :3

pencils, teachers.

new year is coming very soon.
am i excited?

no.
since i'm feeling quite pessimistic at the moment, all i can say is,"More nagging, more boring teachers, blahblahblah".
oh well.

today i finally got my butt to the field, i didn't feel quite inspired since the grass pretty much hated me and pricked my ankles but i did quite go right after some raining..the wet grass eased the pricking. here's today's outtake.

polaroids are made by using poladroid, they're very fun.

and some random photos, i gave up taking photos of myself. -_- this is the chopstick that held erin up during the entire photoshoot. i broke it after much effort.
i shall call it chargrilled bob and jaimie.

hahaha, how random.

happy new year in twenty minutes.

wanted dead: brown, tiny, six-legged, ugly

i wish i could stupefy all the cockroaches living in my house and kill them.
i saw another one in the kitchen today.

there's a baby one in my room. i lost it when i attempted to kill it.

i have to clean my room again tonight, i messed up again.
i went shopping with carrie today, since i was poor, i practically windowshopped. i bought a card for rowena though.

now all i need is to sew something, package it and send it over.
my stomach is doing flips.

mangled plastic.

I don't think i want to drive when I grow up. Though it doesn't look like it, my glasses got mangled by my go-kart today.

I crashed down a hill and jerked, my glasses flew away and it went missing. And in the end, the dude handed me a mangled piece of purple spectacle frame.
You can laugh now, it was my first time.

Today I went to a theme park and found a new interest in crazy screamo thrill rides.
And broke my shoes as well.
Well, height-defying pirate ship that might kill you if you fall, too fast and jerky rollercoaster, an insane waterslide ride and spinning things.
And nausea as the aftermath.

What the hell do you mean I'm fucking dumbfounded?
Do you even know what the fuck dumbfounded means? IT MEANS TO BE STRUCK SPEECHLESS WITH SURPRISE. HOW AM I STRUCK FUCKING DUMBFOUNDED?
By your way of starting a conversation with a lame line?
And, what am I, a happy jolly moron? People have moods. And lame lines make me irritated.
GET IT?
Fuck, I don't even think you even "worry" about me. You just want to fucking use me for your own fucking use when you're bored or need someone to cheer you up.
Bastard. Why don't you go away and bother someone else..
What happened to your old self, your selfishness and flirting went to your head.
Copy and paste.
Yes I will regret this later. If you actually read.

post christmas presents

mummy and i had a delicious lunch and dinner.

wangwang left presents in my sister, the living room and my room today.
the dog version of vomit.

that was very sweet of her..

my sister went hysterical just now, it was funny.
"WANGWANG COME HERE"
"YOU ARE BARRED FROM MY ROOM THE WHOLE DAY"

i think my bed might smell of her presents tonight.

theories about wang

on fridays, wangwang gets to go out and taste fresh air and walk on grass and concrete and smell things.
on fridays, she usually gets verbally attacked by people in a good way.

my theory?
she might be well renowned one day.
why?
okay, let's see.
she has been "kidnapped" from me once.
she has been taken photos of.
she has been called cute too many times.

but this girl is so blur, she doesn't even notice. ;__;

a doggy affair attack something

today wangwang fell in love with a german shepard.

we have no idea if the dog was a female or male.
god, if it turns out to be a female..

.......
oh yes, today mickey twisted carrie's ankle, ran away from her and attacked a dog.
it was very scary.

wangwang..
uh.

my furball is like a pillow.
she's soft and harmless. and blur. hahahaha.

screaming in a box.

merry christmas.

i'm on santa's naughty list.
he didn't leave me anything, he just made the aircon colder.
i suppose, since i wanted snow and winter for christmas, so, why not, a colder temperature to feel "winter". no, i'm just babbling crap.

i can't take photos today since my sister said i "borrowed" her camera for the week and that i would "misuse" it.

i suddenly feel like sticking a fork at a robert pattison poster to feel better.
okay, that's a tad destructive.

since my family aren't christmas people, it's a dull gloomy day.
thanks to the all day raining christmas eve, it's cloudy and the christmas spirit in the house is slightly dead.

when i grow older and i have my own place, i'm going to go crazy during christmas.
if i have sufficient money, i'll get a christmas tree, have cookies and milk on the table during christmas eve and expect my roomie to eat them just to satisfy me.
and there better be presents or else the turkey's gonna fly out of the kitchen window.

haha.

movie flashby.

i'm going to be broke at this rate.
seriously. too many movies to watch, i thought i was meant to be an extrovert!

today i finally realised why the apartment where the new neighbours were suppose to live in were dead for the past few days. they haven't moved in yet!
and yes, i am still in love with their freaking apartment, it's perfection.
wooden floors, beautiful lamps on walls, warm ambience!
too bad it's a family of two parents and three/two sons. gah.

anyhow, i caught twilight and yes man in the theatre today.
i still don't like robert pattison. although he looked amazing in the movie, i still don't like his acting.
yes man was one of the best comedies i've ever watched and pepper spray does not work on vampires.

now i'm off to sew my hands off.

my eyes

eye see you.

photos.

nothing worth to upload on flickr since the one i intended to put online had a bad resolution.
i think i'll drag myself to the field tomorrow, i haven't been there for ages.