the dog is in the tv

hello! the pre-streaming results came out today.
i kind of panicked and went crazy negatively. it wasn't really about my grades though.

i'm such a strange person.

so, here are some long awaited photos that i took forever to upload. they're boring photos of my sister and wang. : )

Bellyn says:
*AW.
*i hope they wont figure it out xP
♠. joelyn says:
*XD
*okay, i gotta go.
*talk to you tomoroow. :)
Bellyn says:
*LIKE YOU SMART ASS
♠. joelyn says:
*LOL
*: DD
Bellyn says:
*: D

today was awesome.
but it blew.

they are all the same.

i realise when you listen to two versions of a song, they tend to have differences but then you realise they were both american idol finalists so it's kinda funny.

but its weird, they both sound similar.

i had a mental breakdown today, i don't know why. okay, i do know why but the reason is really stupid. and i never had this kind of thing happen before.

well, that adds one point of being bipolar.

"our relationship is like ripples of water, if we don't keep playing with it, it's just going to stay still and stale,"

Hannah Bipolar . says:

*WANNA GO SENTOSAAA??

♠. joelyn says:

*wat.

*wai.

farahinfunstuff!(: says:

*YOUR HEAD

Hannah Bipolar . says:

*WHO CARES BOUT FOOD! WERE ALL FAT, well not really, BUT WE DONT NEED TO EAT<>

♠. joelyn says:

*pie.

fuck. i hate homework so fucking much.

i hate proportional things. my ruler hates me.

my green eraser doesn't erase things, it leaves bloody black lines that can't be fucking erased.

i don't have a stupid maths set, they're all probably broken or missing.

and i probably will not be sleeping tonight.

oh my god, i wish i could murder the person who created homework.

WHY DID I EVEN TRY TO DO MY HOMEWORK?

I JUST WASTED AN HOUR OF MY SLEEP.

she just don't care.

i have a splitting headache right now. i even took panadol but it made the headache worser. : |

i haven't even done my homework, argh. i don't even feel like doing it, i just want to go to bed and wake up at seven in the morning. but i can't.

i have art tomorrow and i didn't do the homework, i think i don't like my teacher. i didn't get what she really taught us last week.

ahhhh.

i kinda accidentally broke carrie's camera lens today.

if the lens really hate me and decide to die on her, i have to buy her a new camera lens.

but yay for a possibly new diana super wide camera lens? 0:

i went to chinatown with carrie today. i guess photos will be up tomorrow.

YOU CAN'T THINK WITH YOUR HEART. YOUR HEART IS NOT A BRAIN. IT'S NOT ANCIENT EGYPT ANYMORE. UNLESS YOU WOULD LIKE ME TO CRACK OPEN YOUR NOSE AND SCOOP OUT YOUR BRAINS AND THROW THEM AWAY, PLEASE USE YOUR BRAIN AND NOT YOUR HEART. BECAUSE WHEN YOU USE YOUR HEART, ALL YOU'RE DOING IS MAKING A RETARDED DECISION, DUMBASS.
(via teacakes)

that blog is very censored. very.

found this quote from laurencephilomene.

graham bell

i like going through a routine. i like going down seven levels of staircases to reach the ground floor so i can take bus 37 and ride to school. i like jotting down what happened in my life in my journal during breaks during school. something like, "i had no idea what mr tom was talking about during math" or "i think susan may is very pretty today". even though susan may always looks the same everyday in school. her blonde hair is always in a low ponytail with a grey scrunchie even though grey hair accessories aren't allowed in school. but she doesn't really care and i like her that way.

the boys in my class even my best friend evan thinks its weird that i write in a journal. but i don't care, i like myself that way.

one day when i'm waiting at the bus stop with evan (which is another routine) and even though we don't drop at the same stop, we still ride the bus together. he talks about my journal writing.

"bell, i think its funny that you write in a journal,"

"i like being funny,"

"but bell, its girly,"

"i like writing,"

and he knows i won't do anything about it so he shuts up.

but at home i sit on my bed and wonder whether writing in a journal is girly. is it?

during lunch break in school, i was eating a tuna sandwich. it's white bread with canned tuna and a lettuce leaf in the middle of it all. i eat it everyday. sometimes my dad makes me the ham version of the sandwich so instead of tuna its ham. i don't buy food from school, i always eat the sandwich in my green lunch box. evan eats something different everyday. today he is eating a container of grey spaghetti in his lunch box. it looks gross.

"what the heck is that," i asked. (heck is considered an obscene word already even though i heard my dad saying worser words than heck)

"its soba," he told me when he poked his fork on the grey noodles. they reminded me of octopus tentacles. i didn't want to ask more so i just ate my tuna sandwich.

susan may was eating a chocolate chip muffin with an apple juice packet. i want to eat with her one day.

i live with my dad and mum. but while everybody's dads are out working and their mums stay home, my mum goes out to work and my dad takes care of our house and my twin siblings. mummy is a head of some department while daddy can make a mean pasta sauce. i always help dad take care of andrew and melanie, they're both six and i am ten.

"graaaahaaaam," my dad calls out from the kitchen and i come running to him. my dad always pull the syllabuses of my name when he's in a very good mood. he always is.

he asks me to mix some muffin mix while he butters the tray. my dad can bake too.

i once asked why he wouldn't become a chef because if my dad became a chef he would be very good at being one. he told me it was a complicated job and he wouldn't have enough time for us anymore.

my brother and sister like to call me graham cracker. andrew would scream graham and melanie would yell cracker.

my name isn't pronounced as gram. it's pronounced as 'grey-uhm'.

ahh.

Standing tall

Originally uploaded by misstella

i want a moof so badly.
but i think i can only get in her in october.

i haven't been saving anything for so long, i can't keep up with myself. she's affordable, my parents might go "oh no you shall not" but who cares, i like her.

please view stella's flickr, she is a very lovely person. ♥

"It's like we're on a train and we're going nice and smooth where we can see pretty scenery but then it speeds up a little and everything seems to be zooming past us like light years. We can't even speak because the noise from the train gets louder and louder and louder. It becomes too fast, everyone's screaming and panicking, the trees don't even look like trees, they look like rushes of green and the sky is a rush of azure, everything is a complete big blur, we all don't know where we're going and then,"

"We just crash,"

"And everything turns into oblivion,"

i wish we didn't even get on that train.

"You're actually thinking about whatever you're trying not to think about."

"Are you kidding? I'm going to surprise you with the most awesome costume accompaniment in the history of coupledom ever."

- A Little Friendly Advice, Siobhan Vivian

these big city dreams are what you're about.

hana didn't come to school today, farahin and i got reaaaaally frustrated.

really.

tomorrow i'm having some e-learning thing so i don't have to go to school tomorrow. ♥

but i don't really get it if they want us to do the work from 9am to 3pm but why is the work already posted on the blog? it's so confusing. now i don't know whether i want to wake up and late and do the work or wake up early, go out for a dolly photoshoot and come back and do the work..

that sounded confusing hahaha.

my sister and i took wangwang out for a walk, she was ecstatic. and there were a lot of dogs.

and cats. there was this really cute black and white cat, it had an awesome face.

i'm bad at describing. i think i need anger management.

i fucking refuse to let you ruin my night.

and i can't even rant properly or else i'm going to sound like a typical chinese girl. argh.

what the fuck. i mean, common courtesy much?! when you hit someone by accident, you are suppose to fucking apologise and not fucking give that fucking look like i'm in the fucking wrong.

do not fucking pull your weight around. it doesn't mean you have a clique of noisy people that you can do whatever you want. people will not do what you want them to do. ahhh, fuck it.

yay cheeeeeeese.

i started off with cereal this morning.

avery says hi.
jason.
this was a belated birthday present from safarah, isn't he cute?

i'm reading this right now.

i have to study tonight for my chinese, i hate it when the school changes the timetable. : |

i made myself this really awesome (in my standards lol) sandwich for dinner, it had a lot of cheese and egg. : D

cuboid.

i got bored on a thursday afternoon so i went mad with some wooden cubes i got from the design and technology room and painted them. it was very nostalgic and mad.

today.

the rubber band flew and got stuck on the tv.

lunch.


eeeeeeeeeeeh.

my sister.

i love the mugs from my aunt, they're so awesome. ♥

i know i've been procrastinating like some sloth, i should really go revive my flickr, i might go outside and take photos tomorrow. if it doesn't rain.