afternoon picnic -

Robert Pattinson playing Edward Cullen, the embodiment of the perfect man. Edward's only flaw is that he is a vampire, but if I am reading the metaphor correctly this is actually a good thing because every girl wants an overprotective boyfriend that only wants to suck the life out of you. As long as he is "beautiful" and shimmers in the sun like white diamonds the rest doesn't matter. - twilight movie review


haha, this is so funny. (:
okay, this isn't a short entry, it's going to be worthwhile. I guess.
today, my guitar teacher started to play a really complicated song, saying it would be our guitar exam song. one of the six guitar songs.
i went to another blythe meet today, it was absolutely wonderful. we had a delicious picnic under a tree at east coast park. the weather was perfect well, except showing signs of rain. one half of the sky was grey, the other half was not. well, it eventually started raining cats and dogs. but we were done with our photography.
erin's back from her little trip, she looks absolutely perfect. <3

oh, it was a bad idea to leave avery geoffrey junior behind the group of blythe dolls, he ended up appearing in the photos. how embarrassing!

-

i'm saving for a dslr.
i have no alternate choice.

i wanted nuala.

i must stop posting so little.

I had an outrageous idea.
I always wanted a goldie.

I wanted the goldie that's in the shop window of Dollz Inc and I just thought,"Hey, I wanna pay any amount of money for her. She's the one!"

Yes, I'm crazy. :]

Erin has gone on a trip.
She won't be back for awhile.

Apologies on my horrible photos, i have idea block. and writer's block as well.


Joelyn should stop moping.

fake angry song -

i realised scream by zac efron in the high school musical three soundtrack is such a fake angry song. oh well, what to expect.

i think i was being racist today. maybe.
i'm not ever gonna laugh so hard early in the morning, it's bad. i realised today was one of the best guitar lessons, i never laughed like this in class before.
though the wrath of chords is killer.

the decency of food in the house is going stale.
oh yes, i accidentally burnt my tongue when i was drinking soup today. my tongue stings so badly now.

-

i'm in the mood for haplessly sad depressing love songs!
mind me.



And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget it
Please don't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us

memories.

i was cleaning up the junk in my computer. i found an old blog entry.
and plenty of photos. (:

Edited as it was too crazy. This was written on 25th May 2008, my sister and Erin's birthday.


It's a nice Sunday, it's my dolly's birthday and my beloved evil sister's birthday.

She's turning 19 today.
I'm talking about my sister.

Not Erin.

I would have taken photos of Erin but the thing is, Danial has my camera and he's not home so I can't contact him. :l aw, geez.
Well, i guess I'll have to resort to my mum's phone.
I'm listening to music being fast forwarded. My computer killed my Itunes. My mum found this way awesome vintage-like electric blue speakers and they're cool except the music is super soft. Now, that sucks.
I'm swapping between those blue speakers and the ones I always use, yeah it sounds pretty soft but it's really good stuff. About my current ones, well, they're half-dead but give out the best sounds ever.But, I stole them from my mother's other computer who I killed.

I just realised that all the computers that I have been using, has always been slower, more dead and useless. Well, I have been downloading games when I ever got to use them and I guess Maplestory, Pristontale and The Sims are games that use a lot of memory. Plus, I have been going onto to MiniClip and Y8 and Candystand and other game sites. Teehee.
I'm going to Malaysia later, it's going to be a bore, yeahs. Same chinese food, maybe shopping. I'll probably observe the shoppers and see how they're different from Singaporeans. Yeah, I'm pretty bored. But, we get super cheap things for like, cheaper! Danial, come home.
I want my camera back. T_T Don't delete the photos that I want to blackmail you.

"He said you,"
"Birds can fly so high they can shit on your head and they can almost fly into your eyes and make you feel so scared but when you look at them and see that they're beautiful, that's how I feel about you,"

Random lyrics. (: I finally got to watch this particular Phineas and Ferb episode where I've been waiting to watch since Valentine's Day. It was like awesome, I loved it. Phineas and Ferb formed a band, got a one hit wonder, threw a fit, heard their music in the elevator and then did a reunion tour within one day. Which was so cool. I tell you, the people who created Phineas and Ferb are geniuses!
Well, I think I'm gonna ask my dad for money. I want to buy The Click Five's album, Modern Minds and Pasttimes. I just realised I love their pop music.

"He met her in the phone,"
"He took her to a movie,"

Well, last night, Estella and I talked on the telephone for ages, she ate laksa while I ate curry instant noodles at midnight, we talked about everything. Everything.The Click Five, boys, well, everything!
Then, we played the bombing game on the telephone which was super funny because she kept bombing my dog and I kept laughing like crazy. XD Well, it's strange to describe but I tell you, it was great.

"I'm waiting, waiting for nothing,"
"You're waiting, waiting for something,"
"When did your heart go missing?"

Yesterday, I went to the Expo. I was suppose to meet up with Danial at noon but he cancelled. Well, I'm going to cake him someday. But the chocolate's getting stale. :l Well, anyway, yesterday, I ate at Macau Express. Good stuff and was I stuffed!
My mum dragged me to the food fair and they were all the same things, I tried papaya soy milk, it tasted like papaya but the aftertaste tasted like soy milk. Which was strange in a good way. I don't know why, but I felt sick looking at those fattening squids dipped in chilli sauce.
Moral : Do not go to a food fair when you're freaking full.

It's a horrible idea. I saw a tent called Yummy House and I thought,"Donuts!" Then, it hit me. Why aren't there donuts at food fairs??? Apparantly, Yummy House sold honey and this guy was talking on the microphone, repeating the same thing, over and over again.
"If you got sore throat, eat honey."
"If you got sore throat, eat honey."
"If you got sore throat, eat honey."
LOL. Then, we got stuck in a human jam.
Then, I went to Robinson Sale, there were so many people. Not exactly so many. I went straight to the toys section and saw bubbles. Bubbles!
Strangely, I didn't see any Barbie things which was weird because, Barbie was always EVERYWHERE! But not there. Strange. Anyway, there was Xboxes and PS3s and a lot of boys were playing. There was this boy, he was playing PS3 and he kept making useless sounds. o_O"
"Yeah!"
"WOAH!"
"YEAAH."
"WOOT."
And it was really really loud. I tried persuading my mum to get me a bubble gun but she wouldn't get it for me. ): I like bubbles.
Well, I wonder what kind of things we'll get at Malaysia.



photos.

i drew this horse at twelve.

the bear is frankie, i adored him. but i lost him at a foodcourt.

he's gone.

wash that sugar down

I heard this on October Road. (:

Today I accidentally broke my spectacles. At least I have an excuse to get better ones, mine are so crappy. I'll be semi-blind till the 25th though..
I met Carrie and Joyce at the park today with Wang and Carrie's jack russel, Mickey. Hee, he is so cute. I took some photos.



And outtakes from previous photoshoots with Erin because I feel bored.

random day .

the theme park was closed. it's only opened during the weekends.

i was really looking forward on having fun since the last time i went to the theme park was years ago with my mum and sister and it was nothing fun..

i ended up having my brunch with carrie, joyce and xuan feng. we talked for an hour till xuan feng came. and man, did he eat fast.
well, we did talk a lot.
i spent the day wasting twenty minutes at e!hub walking backwards, taking a long route to the pasir ris park playground and shopping at white sands. (:
we spent an hour walking to the playgrounds and we were almost there when it rained. so, we took a bus back to the interchange and xuan feng went home.
carrie, joyce and me went shopping and i bought a new purse. and a mini avery bear which i found in a shop. (:
carrie called wednesday random day.



Last night I knew what to say
But you weren't there to hear it
These lines so well rehearsed
Tongue tied and overloaded
You'll never notice

♥

as my dad always says,"Joelyn, don't get so involved so early in life,"

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i'm going to a theme park tomorrow.

hello tiffany james and the little imperfect guitar

i feel somewhat inferior when i read literature paragraphs written by other people.
and their character profiles with real pictures of one person, either female or male. though the first thing that appears in my mind says,"I wonder if they stole that photo and edited it themselves,"
i don't know how to do that, simply taking somebody's photo and using it for my character profile. if i even start one. if i can, i rather take self-portraits of myself.
that'll never happen.

anyhow, i hardly roleplay anymore. firstly, usually, the plots are disgustingly cliched or, character profiles are somewhat required. i used to write a lot, now i don't.
i might take up writing again. i wrote this a couple weeks ago.
please leave constructive criticism on my tagboard. (:

Tiffany James always hated her name. She was never proud of it, she believed the name belonged to the stereotypical bitchy blondes in cheerleader's uniform with their obnoxious giggles and never-ending gossip. Tiffany always called herself Gala, it was malay for bamboo pole. But who would ever call themselves a bamboo pole? Her reason?
She was so thin, she often compared herself to a bamboo pole. And, no one would ever know gala meant "bamboo pole" instead of festivity. Well, except those who learnt malay.

Tiffany would be usually mistaken for having white hair from afar, but her hair was really a light shade of blonde. It was long with a straight flat fringe. She usually wore dresses in monotones with her glittery silver ballet flats.
Tiffany lived far from school. She studied in a special school.

that was how far i got to.
i don't know if i want to post it on fictionpress. i intended to post it on quizilla but quizilla has been taken over by a bunch of writers writing cliches or fan fiction.

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i took out my guitar after a month of hating it.
i planned on getting a classical and then playing with my acoustic. well, i changed my mind.
i missed the smell of wood it gave out.
and the design of white leaves, a gold flower protruding out where a gold bird is taking its honey.

(:

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yesterday i went shopping with mum. we went shopping for fabric and i got new fabric to play with. and special scissors that can cut fabric!

they're very sharp.
i don't why i made that point.

we even bought some donuts and peach tarts for breakfast.
while we were at the alcohol section of the supermarket, there was this unknown bag.
i thought it was a bomb waiting to explode. yeah, i know, kind of paranoid of me to think that..
well, i was kinda freaked when i watched the "if the singapore train station was really bombed" video. it was really scary. imagine if the bomb went off, near fire hazardous drinks..
yeah..

i had guitar class today. i didn't play well.
oh well.

i need my lemonade.

a conversation i had with ting fang.

i am finally seeing -

i was the one worth leaving ♥

i am in the midst of changing my photography style. i'm not so good taking photos of erin in grass. i can no longer return to the field i loved because, (read this) i'm afraid i'll attract more attention by passerbys wondering why such a juvenile is wandering in the field. and, the grass there hurts my legs as they're full of spikes. ):

i finally got another idea.
kudos to ting fang!

yawns.

today what seemed to be an attempt to eat dim sum with my sister at bugis and then sending her a bye to school was definitely not an attempt.
i ended up spending the entire day in her school where the teachers and students seemingly ignored me while i met her friends and we had dinner at subway. we were stuffed. (:
yay for nafa.

now i have nothing to do for the rest of the holidays. -_-

wake up call, coffee and juice.

(click to enlarge)
oh my god.
erin's on SG yahoo.
this is the specific photo disclosed.


and it was viewed four hundred and six times.
currently there is no one on msn that i can express my crazy shocked excitement and i went nuts to my sister and she went,"For what?"
So, tomorrow, I'm gonna celebrate. Somehow.
Yeah.

screenshot courtesy of serene.

2pm:
it's raining but i don't feel cold yet. why can't we just have four seasons and get over it?
and i'm being a bitch. -_-

i hate those days when all i want to do is slack around and watch television.
i wish i had a dslr.
i am wondering why i don't feel an inch of coldness even though it's currently raining cats and cookies.
i am not good with advice at the moment.
my throat is as dry as paper.
i drank too much coffee.
but i love the coffee we have now.
i'm listening to a song about snow.
i planned a photoshoot today but come to think of it, i'm lacking inspiration.
for the first time, i'm wearing a turtleneck and i feel occasionally strangled.


dj fly nerd of the furry cirus.
today is my random sunday.

i couldn't get to see hou this weekend.
and i was watching the heroes marathon today. i think i might be addicted to it.

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halloween

I'm pretty sure alarm clocks don't work for me.
Hmm, I should get those electric shock ones, those might work. They're like normal alarm clocks and when you press the button to shut it up, you'll recieve an electric shock in return.

Today I went to my class barbeque. Not exactly what I expected but still, it was good.
Well, except being accidentally hit with a water bomb and not expecting that balloons can cause great pains on the back since I was hit there...
Our barbeque pit was located behind a theme park and the theme park sent a two little kids, a vampire and a grim reaper to scare a particular pit. The grim reaper was poking a guy on his butt. Heh.
And there were some older guys and they made themselves up like the Joker from Batman which was awesome.

Anyhow, I went home with aching bones though I adored today.
My dog is staring at me dyfunctionally..

happy halloween.

clark gable

I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
The script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it

And i want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd
I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
That your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?

- Clark Gable, The Postal Service

i love this song.

Let's sit on the grass and forget everything but us.

I don't think alarms are working well for me. I set three alarms from 9:30, 9:45 and 10am. I only woke up at 10 and somehow ignored the other two alarms even though my phone is under my pillow. (My phone is my alarm clock.)
Anyhow, I headed out to take photos this morning. Then, this lady came up to me and asked what I was doing on the grass field.
"I'm taking photos,"
"Everyday?"
"Uh, no,"
"Because I saw you yesterday,"
"Oh,"
"Where's your mum?"
"Working,"
"Oh,"
"...."
"Where you live?"
"(my block number here)"
"But it's so hot here,"
"Nah, it's okay,"
"Oh, I think your family got problem that's why you're here,"
"Uh.."

Well, I don't really mind her saying that. I mean, what would you think if you saw a girl sitting on the grass, posing some plastic doll and taking photos on a really hot day? Heh. :P
Anyway, here are some outtakes, I realised I'm terrible at self-portraiture.

Lost track.

Today started off with my dog jumping on me because she was shaken awake due to my vibrating phone alarm. Anyhow, I really started my morning with a nice shower and finding nothing to digest. I had an iced latte and took a bus to school to return my report book.
And I went off to the post office to collect my awaited package! :D

Though the wait was 30 minutes long, there was this old man who was in front of the lady in front of me and he couldn't collect his mail because he only recieved his notification today and the mail hasn't arrived yet. He waited for nothing. ):
Anyhow, my jaw dropped when I opened the package.

Literally. Well, can't blame me, it's my first mail item.
Sadly, the photos I took today were horrible. I'm going to take photos tomorrow morning.


If I can wake up.

hou ♥

My cousin is sweet. Somewhat selfish for a five-year-old but still, an awesome gamer.
I asked my mum why my cousin wouldn't let go of me and she told me, he was lonely. He's addicted to his Nintendo DS and I love Nintendo. I used to share a DS with my sister but during a terrible mishap, it died.
I can't wait to see him next week.

I spent the day with my cousin, aunt and uncle. And my mum and sister.
Yeah.

My cousin showed us how to kill a fly in the food court by merely just clapping your hands together, squashing the poor bug to death. I just killed one in my room by accident.
Using that same method.



(:

"If you don't believe the bible, God will damn you to hell,"
"I seriously don't believe that God goes around damning people to hell because he's too busy doing this!"
Giant arm gestures to beautiful mother nature.

- Bridge To Terabithia

It's a beautiful Sunday and I spent my morning in guitar class, returning to the bus interchange, taking a bus to central, buying brunch of my family and going back home. For the rest of the day, I went slack. I'm not going for a holiday during the two month break, my aunt cancelled the trip to Ipoh. I always thought Ipoh as a cold state but I forgot Malaysia doesn't experience four seasons anyway. Oh well, if you find my skeleton in my home that means I would have died of boredom. I guess I'm going to start writing again.

The depressing life of Tiffany James.

It's been eleven lessons already.

I almost posted a personal entry on my class blog. How stupid.

It is somewhat amazing how I always drag myself out of bed to go out with my family for breakfast, always the last one to be ready and always the one making a fuss. I did this previously and one of my contact lenses fell out. Another fell out today.
I don't know what we did that it lasted till six thirty.
Well, my dad had to withdraw money and we headed to Chinatown for breakfast. Then, we went to IMM, a shopping centre for a couple hours. During these hours, music were screaming into my ears and my parents redeemed themselves a free laptop.

The whole day was gone and when we reached home, we find a note from the post office where the delivery of my package failed. Oh well, I'll collect it on tuesday.


Now, I'll try to crawl into bed and not to worry that I can't practice anything on guitar because I'm a bad workman who blames her tools. -_-

WHERE IS MY MAIL.

; _ ;


Patience is a virtue. Not really my virtue, but yeah. :P

i loved today.

Today was awesome.
I watched High School Musical 3 with Hana and Mira, what am I suppose to say. It is still cheesy over the romance parts. Brandon, Ting and Bao Qiang were in the front row because the tickets were all taken up. Thing was, during the kissing scene, I started to giggle, okay, laugh and Hana started laughing and Mira joined in. Of course, somebody from the back started to shush us but after we stopped laughing, other people just started to laugh. It was somewhat, ridiculous.
Anyhow, we went to Pasir Ris Park and gosh.
Melissa is so cute!

Though I broke my curfew, I decided that changing my attitude was right. Which was, well, yeah. Anyway, here I am with a quiz I've taken with permission from Diana. (:


ARE YOU:
Perfect: In my own way, yes.
Tall: I'm not tall. At all.
In your pajamas: Yep. My blue shirt and orange shorts.
Left handed: Nope. Though I'll like to do more things with my left hand.
Last Friend you saw: Mira
Talked to on the phone: Mira
Person to text you: Mira

LOL

FAVORITE:
Number: 7, 3.
Color: Green, grey.
Food: Anything western.
Place: Somewhere with grass and good air. Like Pasir Ris Park.
QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
I got out of my room and said to my sister who was watching television,"I smell eggg," and she went,"I FORGOT ABOUT THE SOUP!"
Yeah, she forgot to turn off the fire.
Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
The class BBQ and parental pressure.
Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
High School Musical 3.
Q: Where is the last place you went?
Pasir Ris Park.
Q. Do you smile a lot?
Guess so.
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
Usually. (:
Q: Are you a friendly person?
Yeah.
Q: Where did you sleep last night?
My bed.
Q: Why did you sleep there?
I can't sleep in my parents' room anymore and my sister hates sharing the room with me and the living room has no aircon.
Q: When was the last time you cried?
Nineteen days ago.
Q: What was your last thought before going to bed?
MOVIE!
Q: Rate life as of right now, onebeing bad, ten being great?
Seven..Eight..
Q: What do you hear right now?
Two Bodies One Heart - Noah and The Whale
Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
How I'm losing my best friend :l
Q: What's your favorite month?
January.

EMOTIONS:
Are you missing someone right now?
Yeah.
Are you single ?
Are you hitting on me?
Are you tired?
Yep.
Are your parents still married?
Yeah.

BASICS:
Real name?
Joelyn
Age?
Nineteen Thirteen
Eye color?
The darkest brown that ever existed.
Male or female?
Female.
Single?
Yep.
Crushing?
It happens to everyone.
Smart?
I'm so smart that I'm usually compared to my smarter friends.
Hair color?
Brown, black.
Sweats or Jeans?
Jeans.
Phone or Cam?
Phone.

and another one;
1. Do you want to grow old with someone or be single?
It's obvious, I rather grow old with someone.
2. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
Sleeping.
3. What were you doing in last 30 minutes?
I logged onto msn.
4. What was something that happened to you in 1988?
No ideas have yet to have appeared that before they even knew that their first child would come, a second one would be concieved six years after 1989.
5. When someone catches your eye, do you try to make an eye contact or avoid it?
Glancing works.
6. What color is your comb?
Blue.
7. What was the last thing you bought?
Ice cream.
8. How do you know when you're in love?
I guess it's the same as crushing. You get anxiety and paranoia attacks, that person would be glued to your brain and you start sounding weird and all you talk is that person! -_-
9. Have you been to China?
It was freezing cold.
10. Where do you keep your money?
A gold CKIN2U cardboard box.
11. Do you like peanut butter?
Yeah.
14. Dream country/state?
Japan, New York..
15. The thing you love about being single?
You can do whatever you want. No one can stop you except your parents.
17. What is your cellphone number?
My line got cut.
18. Do you wanna cut your hair?
Yeah.
19. Are you over the age of 25?
I already stated my age.
20. Do you talk a lot?
Yeah.
21. Best movie you've seen from the past 2 weeks?
HSM3.
22. Last thing you ate?
Rice.
23. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yeah, too much television works at that idea.
24. Favorite ice cream?
Chocolate or strawberry.
25. Could you date someone who has been only your friend for a long time?
That'll be weird. XD
26. Are you typically a jealous person?
LOL probably.

aaannnnddd another one; XD

IF YOUR EX SAID THIS TO YOU:

Hi how are ya?
Yeah?
2. Hey! You wanna go to the mall?!
What for?
3. I LOVE U..
Dude, you GOTTA get over it!
4. Do u want some cookies?
I'm not in the I-Want-A-Cookie mood now..
5.Can you help me take a picture?!?
Uh, ask her.
6.Help me in my homework!
Go and ask the teacher.
7. Here's my gift to you...
STOP IT LOL
8. Let's just be textmates
I already deleted your phone number.
9. Do you want me to buy you an ipod?-
Okay. No strings attached right? :D
10.Let's sit together in the bus
Riiighhtt..
11. Hi baby
I'm not your baby. That word irks me.
12. Your still handsome/beautiful!
Shut up and let me go. >_>
13.I still LOVE you!
That's why I "broke" up with you. :D
14.Can I visit your house?
Stop stalking me!
15.Do you love me?
As a friend yeah. As someone else, no. Now, stop bothering me and go get a life.




What a crazy ex. LOL

once upon a time there lived a girl.
who detested cockroaches and lizards.
well, she fear roaches more.
one day, before she went to school, she noticed her dog going near the cabinet under the sink.
the dog never did that and she was curious.
there was a giant cockroach and she attempted to kill it with bug spray.
it tried to flee back to the sink and then she saw another roach.
and screamed.
over the past two days.
the roach had already died.
the dog killed the other.
and she just killed a small one.


why cockroach why?
go back to the streets where you reside.
not my home.
how do you fly thirteen storeys up?

pfft. i hate roachs.
there's a corpse in my living room now.

the d to the e to the l i c i o u s.

Today was the last day of school. It was somewhat overwhelming.
I'll miss my desk. And the classroom.
And every single person in my class. (Okay, not everyone :P)

School started off in the hall and ended at 1:35pm in the classroom. We had a small gig of a band and later two guitarists which was quite awesome. I'm still quite amazed by the guy who was playing the classical guitar. I guess practice really does make perfect. Anyway, I followed my mum to the parents teacher conference with my form teacher.

I ended up laughing a lot, I don't know why. My mum and my teacher were fake smiling. Or something. (: I did okay but mum still wants me to go to the better stream next year.

Tomorrow I'm watching High School Musical 3 with Hana and Mira and maybe Brandon and Ting. HSM isn't that cheesy, okay, it is. The trailers just seemed intriguing enough.

I don't know what will happen.
Ha, we'll see.

The outing was terribly boring. More we learned about Singapore and Singapore.
The short videos they made us watch and the interactive game they made us play was still somewhat interesting though.
There were plenty of other students from different schools but we didn't interact with them. They were really out of our age group and looked really strange.

In the bus back to school, we fell asleep because the walking and talking made us tired.

I like walking in White Sands eating chocolate sundaes from Mcdonalds with Diyanah. (:
Though it rained cats and dogs and we were getting sogged.

29/40 people are going to my class barbeque.
We still do not have enough money.

i'm making every possible mistake

hat maI fucking hate spammers.
Spammers who talk bullshit. Utter bullshit.
I hope karma gets you, you fucking retarded spammer with no freaking life.
And I hope that you can learn how to spell.
I know karma will too get me for this, scolding a spammer so harshly. :l


Today everyone was forced to listen to a two hour talk about bullies and gangsters.
Today my class won first place in handball.
Today the house door jammed twice.
Today, I finally went to the giant field near my home to take photos. It wasn't exactly as I expected it to be. The grass wasn't soft as grass, it was rough and the ends of each piece of grass was sharp and prickly. It hurt but the photos came out nicely.
I can't wait for the dress to arrive.

I guess today was okay.
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