because.

these photos are all taken by me.

some of them have been posted without permission by my sister on facebook, i feel really sad that she did that.

everything was taken on 13th of february.

we hung out at starbucks with sindy and i was taking photos at an exhibition near the cafe until a guard told me to stop taking photos unless he had to ask his supervisor..

it was weird.

the rose was from a woman at this new food court we wandered in, i suppose it was a gift to celebrate the food court's opening.

that was more weird.

weird bad friday.

aye, bellyn.

Bellyn says:
colldddd
Bellyn says:
mr cooool guy
Bellyn says:
mr ice cream
♠. joelyn says:
LOL
Bellyn says:
"Hey Joelyn which flavour do you want?"
♠. joelyn says:
LOL


:)

blaand.

Bedbugs have invaded my room.
They really like blood type A, i wonder if they know I'm stick thin and the more blood I lose, I'm probably going to die of lack of blood and leave behind a shell of a short thin cute human being.

And there'll probably be an exaggerated article of my death on the New Paper.

"Jaime Cheng (Name not real as she is a juvenile) was found dead in her room on Saturday morning. Police has called it an unnatural death but suspect it may be caused by anorexia or bullimia. She has died in her sleep, shocking her family members. Her mother found her body when she wanted to wake her up. Her sister believes her death may be caused by a boy Jaime likes in school.
Police is still investigating the case."

Sorry for the horrible fake article, I'm feeling really uninspired right now since my legs won't stop being itchy. ):
Carrie and I were talking about something today, ending it off firmly not to be ever be spoken and suddenly, Mr Osman's voice boomed,"I KNOW WHAT YOU DID!"
It was such a coincidence we started laughing like crazy.

Wooo.
Now I'm off to go kill some insignificant crazy blood-sucking brown insects.
They're like vampires but a thousand times uglier.

Oh yeah, today Edwin sabotaged me into a debate during English.
The girls kept rebutting even though they weren't suppose to and the opposition (i was in the preposition) kept screaming,"STOP REBUTTING!"
So, I decided to grab a marker and draw a smiley with a bunch of really random taglines on the whiteboard.

"Lol."
"I'm fake-smiling."
"My jaw hurts."
"LET ME REBUTT"

No one noticed.
They were far too busy screaming.

/

We had a seminar today.
We had to take a test.

They said that my linguistics was my best talent.
Are you kidding me? I am good at language and writing but no, not really.
If I am, I'll be doing really awesome at chinese and I'm failing right now.

Tests are such liars.

I hope they catch on fire.
And then hung on a telephone wire.

Ah, I think it's better off for them to be recycled.

Click.

I had photography training today.
Three trainers entered the IT lab, two ladies and a man. The first impressions didn't go well.

And before that, I kinda tripped on the step and entered the lab with a thud and everyone stared at me. .__.
It was boring and interesting at the same time. Pretty much, we used the toilet break as a time to slack, Farahin and I walked real slow and watched the uniform groups practice for Total Defence Day.
I guess you could say everyone saw my macro photography even though they didn't know it was me. I nearly laughed at my own photos, don't ask why, it was really random. (:

s o n g

This song is somewhat inspiring to me.

If it all goes wrong, we walk.

Happy Valentine's Day.

Hey, I'm celebrating it with my dog.
Who's being wonderfully gay and lovesick.
No, I never celebrate this occasion.
Not really.

I want to walk her today but I fear to see couples everywhere I go.
I had enough of seeing them yesterday while I was with my sister.

So, while my sister is going to a party tonight and my parents are just gonna spend more time together or pretend Valentine never existed, I'm just tapping on the keyboard, staring at the screen.
And my computer is in a coma, it refuses to work anymore. ):
I found a method to fix it but I don't know the anatomy of a computer hard drive. -_-




Sigh.
I'm going to write myself a sad poem and cry in horror at all things Valentine.

I don't like my sister anymore.
She doesn't understand copyright.

Wang. My public journal.

What to say, my life's been really dead.

Ahh..

sigh.

This is a wonderful negative space.

I hate saturdays.
It's those days when I really have nothing to do except mundane things such as homework and fumble at my faults.

I hate how I lost my contact lense, it probably fell into the sink.
And I kept falling asleep last night, I felt so tired and lazy and useless. Like a dead person.
A zombie.

I wake up today at ten odd, messaging random friends and listen to love songs.
Then I ate a nasi lemak and watched random television.

I really hate puppy love.
I think it's because I've always been attracting weird people or the people that I've liked are just never who I think they will ever be.

Yesterday, Wang recieved three comments about her cuteness and I recieved one.

Mini mart uncle: So cute!
Joelyn: Erm, thanks.
Uncle: I didn't mean the dog, I meant you.
Joelyn: Err..

It was funny.
Okay, I'll go force myself to do some schoolwork now.

If we could just be immobile for some time and finally figure out the way we feel
About the missing puzzle pieces and cloudy question marks that still look a bit surreal

- I'll Meet You There, Owl City

-

bring me down to earth.

i'm confused like a person stuck in a maze.

maybe i'll throw all these feelings to the books.

i'm also partly writing a murder novel, it was something that popped into my brain in class.

Photo taken by Carrie. (again, lol.)

hello schoolgirl.

Today was a wonderful to play dead.
Carrie, Joyce and I were bored. Really bored.

I didn't have the mood to study. I just felt dead tired.

People say I'm cute.
I'm not at all!

Well, I suppose if I am, cutesy poses don't work well with me.

Cute + Cute = EWW

See what I mean? I look like road kill from that point of view.

All photos taken by Carrie.

sparks flew but they hit the wall and died.

I had no ideas today. Then I decided to grab all of my seventeen magazines.
That's today inspiration.

My guitar teacher had an interesting conversation about illegal things today. It was funny.

I saw someone today.
He was with his brothers. He is still ugly. I don't know why I even used to like him, something went wrong with me when i knew him in primary school. Something did happen but I killed it.
I didn't mean to.
Can you still like a person if he said,"I like you too," but he tells you he also liked someone else? And he knows how you feel but yet he just tells you his feelings about her?
And expect you to be there if that girl rejects him?

Jerk.

I was listening to my music with my family and I was so glad I was listening to I Can Do Better by Avril Lavigne at that time. I felt so much better.

Anyway, I sort of borrowed my cousin's classical guitar. I love her guitar, it has a really awesome scorpion on it.

Lost.

I'm having brunch consisting of a toasted and buttered sandwich of tuna and cheese with a nice warm cup of milo. I just watched the season finale of Avatar, I can say it was good but now I pretty much have nothing to watch on television since most of the shows are just reruns.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I was suppose to go to a flea market with my sister today but I didn't know we had to leave at eleven. I was still asleep and pretty much, even though I was half-asleep, I managed to throw things against the wall, screaming and crying.

Sigh. I have issues even when I'm not fully conscious.

I think I'll lock myself in my room today, I got things to do.
I'm not going to google anger management, it's very funny. Haha.

-

Got up on the wrong side of life today, yeah
Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late
My phone doesn't work cause it's out of range
Looks like it's just one of those kind of days

You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground
No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no
Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud

And I feel so alive
I can't help myself
Don't you realize

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

So-so's how I'm doing, if you're wondering
I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning
Stay there, come closer it's at your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch

- Runaway, Avril Lavigne

runaway.

Joelyn
_ @hotmail.com
Registered since: 13 October 2002

I can't believe I've been a member on MSN for so long. That's a little crazy, right?

I was actually given a perfect chance to study today. And I didn't study. At all.
Well, pretty much I was with Carrie and Carrie isn't one of those people who'll study. She'll probably poke me or something. XD
So, I just spent my day feeling good, I accidentally choked on something edible while laughing (again for the 324324 time), freaked out Carrie with a man burp and just laughed a lot.

I had to take my individual school photo today. The photographer thought my fringe was too long so a woman was trying to 'fix' my fringe while I tried to smile.
I think the photo will come out really really wrong.

You thought you might be a ghost, you didn't get to heaven but you made it close.

I am a slug. A slug.

A complete lazy slow-moving slug. Why I'm a slug? I haven't touched any of my homework, studied nothing and I'm practically unprepared for anything right now. I did take some photos, they were okay but I thought they were horrible.

So above this post are a photo of a necklace I made last year and a tree that I'm always under of because I love taking photos there. I think I'll try to do some drawing for my art homework then I'll scurry for a drawing pen tomorrow at school.

Anyway, here's a photo of Hou, he loves to terrorise me a lot now.

And I don't know how I used to adore him so much.

Evil cousin.

I was harassed by my five year old cousin today. He just kept picking up the mouse and jabbing the keyboard.


And he really liked walking around in my aunt's house without any pants on with thirteen people and a dog in the house. I could hear Joseph saying,"Let's take a photo of him now and blackmail him when he's older!"
"You wait twenty years ah!"
"Eh, Hou Hou, let me take a photo of you so I can blackmail you ten years from now!"

"Hou Hou! I can see your -beep- coloured underwear!"
"HEEHEE!" he laughs.

Such a silly silly boy.
I feel like drinking the coffee that my mum gotten from my cousin but it's after twelve midnight and I don't want to grow fat.

I have no mood for anything lately.

Hot and Cold.

I don't know why I posted such a pessimistic post just now.
I had my reunion dinner with my family today, yay for steamboat. And dead sea animals.
Wooo.

I just went to eat ice cream with my sister and Wang in the cold. It's so warm in the house while it's so cold outside. I love weather like this.
My sister has no idea how to walk Wang in my opinion. She just kept tugging the leash really hard and yelling commands. Poor Wang was really confused. @_@
And we recieved "omg cute dog" comments today. I'm really immune to Wang's cuteness, it just dies on you eventually.

Avery has a royal ass.
I kept yelling asshole today.

Solace in this song.

I don't know what's wrong with my sister, she's such a weirdo.
She seems so argumentive on Facebook and when she comes out of her room I expected her to glare or yell at me. But she merely grinned and walked away.

She's bipolar, I'm telling you!

And I'm trying to study but the mood died. I have to do house visiting tomorrow. Honestly, I don't really expect much this chinese new year, I even hate reunion dinners. I mean, yu sheng. All I get to see are my relatives where they say,"You better study hard this year!" or they'll make a friendly comment on my appearance.
"You've grown taller!"
"You were so small when I last saw you!"
"How are your studies?"
"Here's an ang pao!"

No, I really don't expect anything from them. I am such a pessimist.
All I can think in relief is that nobody pinches my cheeks anymore and squeal,"You're so cute!" Yeah, maybe I'll have some friendly banter with them and get wonderfully terrorised by my little cousin and try not to act antisocial. I just can't wait to go back to school, I have no life during the weekends and holidays.

Lights off.

To lead is to serve.

What new year?

I'm such a hypocrite.

Here's some really random photos I took today.

I'm wondering whether I should serve my school. Pretty much, Diyanah wants to do it. I don't want to be a prefect, it's such a tedious and boring job and you practically have a tie attached to your body. There's this other position in my school but they're called Redshirts. There aren't any ties or they aren't that tedious and you don't have to do as much as a prefect.
But Carrie says there are plenty of meetings and things to do and I would be missing a lot of Kiki and Lala Group meets.

I want to do it for school points so I can do well for my major final life-depending exam two/three years from now.
Gah, I don't know. Oh yes, my sister did a comment on my facebook status and we had a lame arguement worth over eighteen comments even though we were only a room away from each other. It was really stupidly funny.

And you jerk it out.

I forgot to bring my physics homework to school today.
My teacher said that a percent would be deducted from our exam percentage if we didn't pass it up. So that was why I had to walk Wang in my uniform today.

I did some concert photography today.
I think I did okay. (:

I met Vanessa today, she's still the same. We went back to our old school and we finally got to meet Mr Yeo. He's still the same. Everyone's the same.
The boys I once knew in my class are changed, they're all pretending to be idiotic ah bengs. It's all a stupid trend. Don't tuck out your shirt, it shows off your extra fat.
Don't swear excessively, it scares girls off.
Don't pretend, that's stupid.
I saw someone too. He's become one of those trend-followers.

I'm going to rant today.
Today, an ugly self-centered ah beng wannabe, another boy following a stupid trend called me a stupid lesbian and told me that taking photos was something insignificantly stupid. I wish I could criticise your hobby but I can't because my friends are in the same thing. All I can say is that you're just a freaking fat ass.
He's playing with my patience.

A woman told Carrie and I that we shouldn't put our dogs on the playground since it was public property. That I understood but she overdid it by telling passerbys.

I feel very demoralised today. .___.

possess a heart, get a problem sum for free.

Miss me?
Hopefully not. (:

I suppose you could say the past few days have been a routine.
Wake up, go to school, stay till five, come home, study, computer, sleep.
Yada yada yada.

I picked up a new interest, nothing really interesting, it's just well...studying. Probably you would go,"Lol, studying?!"
Yes, studying. I never studied much in my schooling life. I don't suppose you could call cramming studying because it's merely cramming all sorts of knowledgable things into your brain. I've been studying algebra. Math.
And man, do I suck or what! I'm terrible at it.

I mean, I love algebra now but I hate how much I'm so bad at it when I don't have examples to copy view from! I don't really copy, haha.
I admit though, I haven't taken any photos at all!
I think I might love maths now and then, I just told Bellyn that the square root of 64 was 8, also that I agreed that 8 to the power of 2 was also 64 and 64 was probably a square.

That's a lot of math mambo jumbo.
Okay, I'm off to bed before I start getting nightmares about math and ugly sheeps.